Some secrets are never meant to be shared

I'm fine...

2009-06-19T00:53:00.005+08:00

today i saw the truth, of what the remains are of my bank account
today i was sick and so were many others
today i was extra sleepy but i still stayed up till now
today i finally went to collect/gather everything
today he showed me the pictures of the trip i was supposed to be at
today he gave me the shell he picked at the trip i was supposed to be at, it is no. 8
today he cooked instant meepok for my supper
today i feel more loved, like every other day... :)
today i wanna forget
today i feel better
today i missed you, your hug, your everything

what a day

I tried to call you...

2009-06-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

i went on a special trip to Lavender today to look see my potential new home. (yes they're serious) the first unit was horrid but the 2nd really caught our attention in a good way. the owner's sort of a jap family, father and son + local daughter in law. cool shit and they have a doggie :) flooring was good and you know how jap people have a thing for cleanliness. parents are interested. i might live in front of the Mrt station. omg. very near to school, mum's work place and straight train for bro. as for dad, he have to take this bus, unless he transfers to ICA building which is in front of the place yet again. convenience is key. im excited yet i'll be far away from many.

i typed everything in a chuck cos im lazy. i want donuts dammit. =[

gosh i need supper.
ciao.

just too bored

2009-06-11T03:41:00.004+08:00

its almost 4, i'm almost asleep.
but this is random.
yeah i will try to sleep early...

-i'm wearing my new sexy leopard pjs and there's no one else to see this except for myself =p
-what does love mean? if this is it then i've fallen too deep..
-i just ate overdue curry for supper. i only hope the worst doesn't happen.
-my life revolves bout a few things: work, shop, sleep, eat and feelings;including mine and his.
-xiaxue just totally tempted me to buy Blackberry.
-i am writing bout my life in point form.
-i miss the train ride home.
-i want to stop waking up so early. (7 hours is not enough)
-i need a hug.
-i hope money is here sooner. =/
-TE BETTER REPLY ME SOON OR ELSE.
-i will watch GG last 2 episodes VERY soon =D thanks...
-mango sales is out to kill me but i'm willing to die. =x
-see point no. 6
-happy birthday Wani dear :)

this is a habit i got from wumi. writing everything in point. i hate that i'm lazy. argh.

come sing me the sweetest lullaby...
good night earthlings.
ciao.

its over?

2009-05-26T04:10:00.007+08:00

i want a man, not a boy...

a man who knows how to appreciate the things I do for him.
a man who pampers me with something that money can't buy
a man who knows his mistakes and try to make it right.
a man who can be my pillow whenever i need someone to lean on.
a man who knows when to give in and let down his pride.
a man who'd communicate, listen and respond
a man who respects me, my family and his.
a man who enjoys what life has to offer.
a man who can say yes or no instead of 'anything'.
a man who won't keep me waiting though the day or night.
a man who (at least) try figure out what's going on inside me and resolve it.
a man who help the relationship work when it gets tough
a man who'd never lay his hand on woman
a man who works hard and planning well for his future
a man who is motivated
a man who takes responsibility for his actions
a man who gives me freedom that I need.
a man who loves me with no doubts.

quote/credits: nirarara

this is very true, i guess i'm just seeking for the perfect guy... too early? you showed me its all too late. there's no reason to give you another chance when i've given aplenty, one too many. i'm worn, you realised too late. i guess we shall just be friends forever. but please, be mature, stop having those pills. they only take the pain away for now. go on with your life cos its hurts me so... like its my fault. you have always controlled my feelings and i wont let you do it anymore. don't ponder, just move on.

2 years is a long time. so much for tolerance.

i'll like to add one more point to that list:
a man who has my interest at heart, not mind. feel how i feel.
because i'll feel you too.
because i'll give in too.

***
i can't seem to get to sleep... i don't know what it is. period? or i have too much thinking too.
friends tell me to enjoy singlehood. my heart asks me: where is the one who loves me truly?

parents, right at home. haha. yeah.

i've been working, a lot. 6 days a week. the pay is as pathetic as i am. but i see a certain sort of motivation everyday :)

and batman, thanks :)

fyi, yours truly starts school on the 20th july. i'm genuinely excited, no matter how the rumours are. hectic or not, i'll do it with passion. many thanks to xr sis who is giving up her pattern making book to me although it was pretty ex.

should i go to this art fest concert at Laselle with Z? tics are for 30 bucks... hmm =/

people are still nice to me. i suppose.

始终还是这样
始终没有结果
始终... 你没有听懂

ED WESTWICK

2009-04-10T02:26:00.004+08:00

first and foremost, i didn't really like gossip girl or chuck whatsoever in the first place but now, i love em and i dig ED WESTWICK. omg british sexy vibe.
this here? one of my fav. songs from the filthy youth. lead singer is of course mr westwick. chuck? is hot too. hahaha. =x

hello cutie =p

he is totally Hugh Laurie in the making cos he can do american accent real well too. smitten shit. i love both of them. can imagine him with the rugged look totally. but oh well, he is with Jessica Szohr now. yucks. hot guys like to go for older women? wtf?

when Vanessa and Nate got together in the show, i was like wtf this is not high school musical bullshit. -.- okay totally random.

alright anyway, if you know me, i'm well and waiting for my final shot at my ideal school. hmm, shall wait and see. i am, in ages long, mugging for it. (:

last night i fell in love without you... i was bruised.

why...

2009-03-27T17:48:00.002+08:00

这是上天的旨意
这是我与你最完美的时刻
希望一切静止
在此时空中
我只是感受到
你在我心中
这... 是我的时刻

-rewatching Meteor Garden I for the 8768934 time. (okay its a randomly typed number)
-living the life of eating and sleeping. i have a bad feeling.
-i don't like to wait...

sleepless night II

2009-03-26T03:26:00.001+08:00

actually there were many more of such but it is of ungodly hour today at 3.30am. yours truly is wide awake. maybe i should have gone club hopping after all.

maybe its because i hate love you. days before i was so pissed i wanted to stop talking to you and now i think i miss you too much. shit. you totally control me.

but baby was really nice to me past 2 days although he tried to scare me with bats, he took off and spent most of his time with me and bought me food, headphone (baby pink audio technica onto), Ben&Jerry's and donut factory x6. i only agreed to clean his wall, full of dust. its obvious cos its in purple! is chio purple okay (solid lavender), not faint purple shade, so lame. -.-

2nd reason was cos i was reading sgforums (baby influenced me, i have never read forums of any kind) regarding people waiting for various poly's DAE results. there was this person from MI who already got a call from RP saying he/she has been accepted, although the website status is still pending. o.o like wtf?

fyi, i still haven't got any call of this sort, so as suggested in the forum, i will call them tomorrow morning. sian. my hopes are not up really.

i love you pumpkin, i know i do. i hate it when u try to make me fat though. you like it? wtf. -.-

hahaha its like talking to you face to face cos i know this is the expression i will get. silly.

good night baby!

WHAT YOU DO BEST...

2009-03-24T00:22:00.003+08:00

IS TO MAKE ME PISSED. EVEN ON A DAY LIKE THIS WHERE YOU SELDOM GET TO BOOK OUT. AMAZING, I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU AND YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME.

I'M AN INCONSIDERATE BITCH. THAT'S WHAT I THINK.

ITS LIKE ONE OF THOSE DAYS YOUR DOG BITES OPEN YOUR MAGGIE MEE AND MAKES A MESS. ITS IRREVERSIBLE.

we can't even talk face to face/voice to voice anymore...

i am settled

2009-03-22T01:41:00.006+08:00

yes i am. at least now its going in the right direction.. should i attend a interview on monday or?

oh well, shall wait until that lady calls again tomorrow.

he finally books out after what 2 weeks? =/ i neither like it nor dislike it.. its already neutral to me to a point where i just let it be.

today a guy told me to camwhore because he camwhores? no i do not camwhore. look bad enough already still need to show the world meh. tsk. =/

i love wonder girls!! haha so random.

enjoy (:

another update and follow up

2009-03-17T12:59:00.002+08:00

after reading the previous entry a thousand times, i realised that it wasn't true. bout the friends part. my OG group A2 and my class 09B1 was a blast. they're best humans ever. i bothered. i cared and cool bunch of people i've met. maybe i was too agitated over the fact that nothing went in my way. my anxiety overpowered my instinct.

i feel sorry. sorry guys, whoever read that. really.

how are you?

2009-03-13T09:37:00.005+08:00

update: i've applied for DAE under RP so... today (16/3) is the first day results will be released and the last will be 31st. (they make us log in to check online everyday for 2 weeks, yes) so today i checked and not out yet. =/

**
it's been a month since i last blogged and a month in that school i don't belong. now i am at home, not in that crappy school i didn't wanna go to in the first place. uniforms, boring context, discipline wtf teachers existing for wtf reasons like your damned socks and math lessons. they have never been my forte but i am still obliged to go? i don't know what the hell i'm doing to my life. i am wasting it away.

its actually my fault, i was too cocky for not choosing this other particular school. both my current school and the school i would rather go to are known to be equally bad but if i were to choose, i would rather be stuck in that other lousy school but doing something i would like to. maybe then i would be willing to do my work. i have a confession. now, i have 4 overdue works in term one which i would get no marks for because i don't give a shit and i totally catch no ball, with no intention to catch it anyway. so it further proves my point, i am losing it. i don't even care to interact with people cos' theres no point. we can't even talk. except for you, fathin =/ for all you know, people who i can talk to are in the arts stream. i am in boring boring boring and even more boring commerce stream. figures figures and more figures. how i wish i was talking bout human figures.

i have another secret.

but i will only reveal it after 4pm. its like i'm superstitious bout such things. i hope lady luck is with me this time round.

so i was talking to michelle a moment ago and she asked me if there were any blessing in disguise. all i can think of were the hot guys in school and some other jap guys who came to do exchange. like hot. thats all really. i'm miserable. i wanna end it now.

i'm sorry i had to rant the moment i started writing but i have no choice. i need to be honest with myself for once. it is not where i belong. i knew it. i thought i could try but it doesn't work for me. it is not who i am.

i tell you, my friend who initially had this school as her first choice withdrew faster than me. as she was leaving yesterday morning, she turned around and told me: 'christie, this school sucks ah, i withdraw already although no school yet. i don't wanna waste my time here already. good luck to us.'

then the first thought struck me. wtf am i fracking doing here in this shit hell of a hole?
on another note, i am so impressed by your courage my dear joanne. you have gotten everything, bought all the stuff but still decide to leave cos you know your stand and stuff. cool. i applaud you. i am envious and you truly understand how i felt thats why you trusted me with your withdrawal form. thanks for that. warms my heart really.

this is my confession really. thats all i'm hiding, i tried really. to stay awake in class (i never took any naps till now), i actively participated in class but with no motivation to do my work. i made new friends but they drifted cos they know my heart is not there. so its true. i don't know wtf i'm doing.

miss you dear, need you now.

random musings

2009-02-09T02:52:00.003+08:00

Girl:
I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Every time I fell on you yeah every time I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But every time I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you

Boy:
I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruisy knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruisy knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue

Girl:
Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you

P.S.
i couldn't sleep. meeting Danny to school tomorrow. will blast his phone. -.- tired day, really very tired.

this is how i feel.

2009-02-05T20:55:00.003+08:00

inner self: kiss me now/say you'll make amends/say you'll be here soon/say you'll come another weekday(try to at least)/say your sorry and promise you'll spend more time with me when you can/say you'll come more often no matter what or when ever you can/say you'll be here the moment you have the time/say you promise you'll make it up soon(in any way)/don't say no promises(you did)/don't say you should go(i know when i should)/don't say nope(just say another day i'll be there and do it)/don't say you're tired so you can't(i try however i feel)

maybe i shouldn't expect the same/expect too much/expect...

reality: nothing but disappointment/you did the exact opposite/i only kpkb to you/i shouldn't have said anything

thanks.

expectations? mental torture?

2009-02-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

sometimes i painfully hope that i'm not bothered by what you said at all.

because every time you say something like that, i can only shut myself up then only hurt inside.
i really don't know what you want, if you find me a form of restriction, then break away from me. i know you hate restrictions. i am not bad tempered, i am just confused and pushed to the edge of breaking down.

like you said: 'Soul and mental affliction... strict regimentation and timings'

here it is word for word, not putting words in your mouth, like you always accuse me of. i don't know what else i can do.
no need to explain. there's no explanation intended as it's clear cut.

that's all i have to say.

MI sucked.

2009-02-02T21:19:00.004+08:00

yes it is like how the title describes. it sucked. big time. i hate uniformed crappy schools. i'm sorry but its the awful truth.

RP RP RP RP~ last resort.

so Huimin's in the same OG as me, saw Fathin and my primary school friend, Shahidah. (: other than that, i hate it.

no uniforms and A levels please. freaky. ick.

2 birthdays in 1

2009-02-02T15:27:00.002+08:00

18 Jan:
so sat was the birthday celeb amongst my family. my mum's treat to jack's place!

beef~! only my bro knows the best beef. juicy and tender, always medium rare for me. didn't like the desserts though. =/
(bro! take care in army!)

20th Jan:

(notice the change of clothes, i was smashed.)

the video says it all. its a surprise party. pleasant one. thanks love, for everything and being so diligent slogging to make us drinks! (:
and many loves to all who came, especially Haiqal who came even after long day of work!
the girls who kept it from me, making me think i was forgotten. lol, thanks. kisses*

after which, we head over to ajisen ramen for lunch! beef ramen was yum yum. i'm a sucker for beef =x

p.s.
sorry for not updating on my birthday bash in such a long time, i was slacking and pigging out. now that i'm posted into MI, i have less time. gonna appeal for RP. =/

xoxo,
christie <3

don't worry,

2009-01-23T00:56:00.000+08:00

if you hate me, ignore me. i will feel better.

i once felt...

2009-01-16T21:26:00.002+08:00

if you can understand Chinese, the lyrics... was how i once felt. it lingers.

**
丁噹猜不透

猜不透
你最近时好时坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
让试探为彼此的心上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸是真的是热的

如果忽远忽近的洒脱
是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活

如果忽冷忽热的温柔
是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已不想追究
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

location location location

2009-01-16T17:33:00.010+08:00

okay i camwhored (Xmas)
bleh.

when you get too good a deal, there's bound to be something wrong.

since walking in heels for almost 5 hours at city hall and Vivo on Wednesday did me no good, i was out with Zul yesterday at Bugis to scout for my perfect purple CNY shoes but to no avail (anywhere else too), we head on to my (our) last possible location.

Bianca @ Haji lane =D

me lovie the strawberries! =D

that big smile is to my perfect shoes (purple of course) and 3 others at $75 + additional bag at $15 that entitled me to another 15% discount. i went crazy.

but something made the person in charge of Bianca crazy too, the person upstairs of them were probably doing their laundry resulting in water pipes leaking and almost flooding the place. Zul was the first to realise. haha.

being the silly me, i went up to the other person helping to clean saying you should make noise to the people upstairs, not knowing he is the one I'm referring to. embarrassment to the max. Zul moved himself away from me. -.-

after which, we went strolling down the alley to get out when a white saloon car was trying to squeeze through and knocked slightly into a truck. he thought he could reverse and save himself but on the contrary, he ripped the front (aka bumper, ya lah you who wants to stay anonymous, I'm noobie i know) and the license plate of his car was almost crashed. it happened right in front of us, i could hear him swearing literally. i feel the pain for him man. can get insurance meh? =/

a day of disasters we call it.

being poor, i had to take the mrt home with my heavy loots and everyone was staring at me cos i looked like i had the shop with me. plus bought mac for bro and mum when i reached destination, it was so heavy i almost broke my arms.

the thing is: NOBODY HELPED ME AT ALL. NO ONE, NO ONE GENTLEMEN ENOUGH. (no angmohs out today)
i was pissed. big big disappointment. (thanks Zul for helping me carry most of it while we were out)

SINGAPOREAN MEN PLEASE DO NOT PROVE YOU'RE SUCH NON GENTLEMEN COMPARED TO THE FOREIGNERS CAN?

wahlao i don't wanna sound like that but the other time i had stuff (a lot but not heavy) to carry and i was out of hands then this very hot angmoh hunk offered to help me lo. its always them. sian you know.

aiya ANYWAY! jack's place tomorrow for pre-birthday brunch with family! will be back with pics (:

xoxo
ciao

p.s.
no i didn't get plastic surgery -.-

the big M

2009-01-13T15:28:00.004+08:00

everyone's worried bout money, almost 60% of the human beings on my msn have their nicks talking bout money. my friend is heavily in debt, i don't know for what, another has a big MOOLAH issue and some just indicates MONEY MONEY MONEY on their pm.

that happened to Batman (his codename between us, mine is Owl. i'm cuter. lol.) he ran out of cash to go to the SG tattoo convention @ expo with me. i think he bought too many merchandises and baby wasn't interested so i decided not to force him into going. the entry ticket is S$18 per day/$50 for 3 days.

lucky bastards. (courtesy to Alvin! :3)

p.s.

if Ami James was there, i wouldn't have cared if i had to go alone ;P

p.p.s
i have just submitted my JAE application. i hope i get my first choice. =D

the man, the myth

2009-01-11T15:17:00.001+08:00

men do this all the time, women walk around thinking 'we' and their version of 'we', is me and my dick.

ol' days

2009-01-05T17:23:00.003+08:00

CHRISTIE AND WENDY OUT~ =D
301208

I will see the light.

2009-01-05T17:09:00.002+08:00

hehehehehe. i am so damn bloody excited bout Wednesday. i'll heading over to paragon for an appointment at 9.30AM. (too early for humans -.-)

shall be revealed by then or when i can update lah. don't be jealous btw. HAHA!

hint: freedom for the window of souls...

to be continued~

MUAHAHAHA. evil laugh x a gazillion.
=x

Happy old year.

2009-01-01T17:39:00.004+08:00

its 2009 but the same old same old routine.

slack, rot, sleep, eat, shit.

but that'll only last till results are finally out and when i get to go on to poly. (i hope it happens) so on the 30th, met up with my Wendy darling after i rush to get my starbucks at TTSH, wanted to visit my uncle but I'm so super late. =/

uncle and gramps(were, then again at NUH) are both in the hospital. uncle was there for a surgery and he only eat biscuits? not good. gramps fainted after he was discharged. this is not good for everyone else's heart. get well soon! (:

so bout last night, went over to the yacht club with love and his parents for bbq and some fireworks. but they were playing with this other stick thing that burns and its red? dont know what its called lah then it blinded everyone plus overshone the fireworks. dammit.

the bbq was huge it made us so bloated we couldnt move. -.-

for today, was supposed to be out but something cocked up big time. i'm blogging from love's place. i'm very pissed seriously. argh. somebody knows it too, she came all the way from M'sia but had to go back. but we are as pissed becos she's still meeting someone whereas im stuck playing World of Goo. argh.

whatever lah pictures from wherever will be up asap. its not here now.

ciao bellas.

roar.

p.s.

nope, no resolutions. all bullshitting. for example: quit smoking? (not me of course silly, i don't smoke fyi) bullshit. if it happens i chop off my head for you. -.-

Discovery

2008-12-18T17:25:00.002+08:00

mum and bro told me about my uncle's blog just now (it's all in chinese)
i must blog because this is a side of him that i've never seen

this is him singing (pianist is my cousin, Calin)
my god they are all talented.
enjoy (:

what a mess.

2008-12-13T13:56:00.005+08:00

everything has been in a mess since i stopped blogging.

both great granny and great gramps passed away bout a month apart, one on haji and the other on puasa (hari raya). i was there but my heart wasn't, we weren't close. then i got my punishment the last day as the incense burnt my arm, it scarred.

so to update, i am still jobless, a lot is helping so thanks everyone, many loves.
hoping for the admin postion to happen.

somebody call me lah dammit.

It is official.

2008-11-26T01:14:00.004+08:00

-I can't seem to find a job. I DON'T KNOW WHY!

-Professionals/employers/whoever the boss love mugshot lookalikes. my self recent photo under 'Greetings' fail! must look like mugshot/serious the whatever sluts.

-In order to resolve this, baby offered to take a mugshot photo of me tomorrow. I am genuinely excited! must think of a series of number to carry. more realistic.

-I can do it like the 'i <3 bryanboy' shots. must learn. they all look promising. sorry bryanboy! i wasn't trying to be funny.

-I am growing fats at home and KH is laughing at this. shit you.

-Will treat Adrian if he successfully finds me a job. you are so weird. -.-

-Broke.

p.s.
if you miss me and you know it, tell me so.

i've been away from home.

2008-11-23T16:47:00.004+08:00

for like 2 days straight but i didnt want to. i fell asleep waiting for supper and baby didnt wake me till i woke up bout 11.30+.

so crys sent me more photos! i still need Effinda!

(my stupid face on the right with the prom queen -.-)

Fathin! btw love e jack... i got one but not so leathery. =/

p.s.

see baby's for his (with me in it of course) ASLC graduation parade photos. that is if you care. lol.

I'm back (:

2008-11-20T19:23:00.013+08:00

spent the weekend over at love's (happy belated 21st birthday love!) we + his family went to Siam Kitchen @ causeway point to have dinner and it was surprisingly good, unlike years back where i swore never to go back ever again. lol. i also spent the 1st 2 days of this week out. i don't remember where. i am losing my memory.

so yesterday was prom! Tabby and Shawn are prom queen and king. expected (i mean Tabby). plus Justin fell sick and took MC. wtf.

prom photo blast!

will fill in captions soon.
xoxo

p.s.
Effinda where are you! you have over 200+ photos so appear online please!

#21 (:

2008-11-15T16:05:00.001+08:00

9 more hours...
Nikko canceled on me last minute -.- i am stuck at home till now.
later (:

#20

2008-11-14T21:42:00.004+08:00

did errands for myself, posted a dress and passed a top to cute Shuwei (thanks for wishing me good luck!)

so i went for the interview at Shaw office tower. i would like this position! please Sean! (lol, your A|X shirt very cool!) i am not boot licking okay.

treated myself to java chip and Cleo mag. plus we just got our new car (Honda jazz) and mum brought us to ichiban for my salmon tataki. thereafter they went to Guardian to get this corset to straighten my back and my hair mask! lol i am so pampered today!

baby is finally coming back tomorrow. Arrival is 1.40am? will check teletext to be sure. its been 20 days and miss you like crazy!
(you'll be 21 soon too!)

can't wait to see you! (:

#19

2008-11-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

today is slack day.

i watched tv, eat, sleep and shit. lived like a pig for a day (?) haha, maybe not the first day.
interview again tomorrow! plus i need some touch up. saturday come now!! =D

xoxo
Christie

#18

2008-11-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

woke up real early to meet up with Angela for her appt. at paragon. i must say i've wasted money on cab. like i didnt wanna be late thus the cab but i waited 20 mins for one to appear. this is bullshit. $15 bucks fly away~

so... I've gotten hair extensions! so exciting lah but i took some off too cos it was too freaking heavy! like too much weight! but now its okay. no pictures cos its gonna be a surprise first. =P

anyway! i am poor and i can't find an office job. why isit so hard? dammit.

#17

2008-11-11T22:52:00.004+08:00

some bigass photos first!!

TODAY IS THE DAY.

THE DAY O LEVEL END
THE DAY I GOT A SUPER COOL HAIR COLOUR

THE DAY I WENT FOR INTERVIEW
THE DAY BABY MESSAGE ME AGAIN

(in sequence)

but whilst all that happened, i was in agony. the killer heels make a comeback and i almost died in the raining with no umbrella and the restriction of my movements. i can't run and nobody offer to shelter me with their bigass umbrellas! fucked up. must swear. tsk.

www.icannotsleep.com

2008-11-11T04:03:00.004+08:00

credits to postsecret*

1) Where is the person you want most?
Taiwan :(

2) Where will you be 2 hours from now?
I hope to be asleep.

3) Did your last kiss mean anything?
Was when he left for Taiwan so a damn big yes.

4) Does your ex miss you?
haha erm i don't think so?

5) Does anyone love you?
I hope so ;)

6) What are you doing tomorrow?
I am very busy. school, salon, interview...

7) Are you easily confused?
Not really?

8) Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
hmm after all I hope I am, am I?

9) Where were you at 9am this morning?
On my bed sleeping. I wanna freaking do it now.

10) Do you fall for people easily?
I dont know, I only know I need someone who loves me more than I love him.

11) Everything happens for a reason?
No doubt.

12) What does your last text message read?
A goodnight message from R at 2.36am. hahaha.

13) What are you listening to right now?
黄靖伦 - 月光

14) How was the week so far?
Sucked but not badly. baby not by my side + poorer + fever + new hair + job interview/offer + end of O levels.

15) Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
Not really. I usually give a piece of my mind. haha.

16) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Of course!! =D

17) Do you sleep with the TV on?
Nope. Only with music on.

18) Are you too forgiving?
Depends on how serious the matter is.

19) Have you ever wanted to be a fire fighter?
Erm... No but I hope I had a fire fighter friend ;P

20) Who do you miss?
HIM! and Wendy! She misses me too! hehe, get well soon darling.

21) What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
Water. I feel dehydrated thus resulting in gulping water therefore frequent toilet trips till now.

22) What are you stressed out about?
My O level results and money. I am very practical.

23) Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
What can i have in my pockets? Okay maybe random tissues sometimes.

24) What do you do mostly in your free time?
Internet, TV, music and disturbing people. LOL.

25) In the past week have you gotten sick?
I was 5 hours ago. fuck now I wanna be sick and SLEEP!

26)Who was your last call from?
Job interview people.

27) What can't you wait for?
More money and this friday!

28) On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?
10. Imperfection is perfection. I am too damn positive I should die.

29) Are you a high-maintenance?
Too. So high sometimes I detest myself for being so bimbotic.

30) Are you happy with the way life is?
Why not right. If not leh? I unhappy then will change is it. Stupid question.

#16

2008-11-11T03:39:00.003+08:00

yes you did not see the time wrong, i think i recovered AGAIN (i was 38.2 degrees (again!) this morning but 36.6 now) thus i am still awake. result of sleeping too much for the past 2 days. i can't sleep at all now. my eyes are tired but my body says 'work you dumbass!'.

hmm, probably cos i'm too hungry from all the lost appetite in the day?

oh well, so this afternoon i met up with lynn laopo anyway to Protrim @ causeway point. i am gonna dye my hair there for $102 tomorrow (compared to Reds for $128, which comprises of the total same service). i save like almost 30 bucks okay. and extensions! haha. -.-

okay btw i still have a morning paper at 8am but i cant sleep. somebody give me sleeping pills. bleh Wumi always say if he lives near me he will sure give me some. (he lives in Taiwan and they get it easily) dammit. maybe one day i will live in Taiwan too, i love it there too much. try to migrate there. LOL.

i am talking nonsense cos i cant sleep. i am too stressed? tsk! *bangs head against wall to be unconscious*

kill me kill me.

#15

2008-11-09T11:31:00.004+08:00

i am feeling this right now. i feel like shit and E**** is talking nonsense to me. -.- thanks for offering to bring me to the doc anyways.

and you! when are you gonna message me! =[

***
update 11.02pm:
i am super woman. am now 36.9. thanks all for your concern esp. those who offered to drag me to the clinic. lol.

xoxo.

p.s.
i am still pondering whether i should spend so much $$ on my hair. =/

#14

2008-11-08T22:53:00.002+08:00

i totally disfigured myself yesterday with my nails on my chin. fuck i look like i got beard (small patch) shit.

so i wanted to go to MDS opening today but i went to my grandma's house instead, miss them.
it was cool, i love to have meals there and gramps asked bout you again.

this is so random, i wanna go bookfest! 14-23 november @ suntec city hall 6. who wanna? =D

#13

2008-11-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

i miss you.

when i eat...
i think of how silly you look when you gobble food down hurriedly and say shiok.
i imagine you reprimanding me for not finishing mine.
i remember the other time when you fed me.

when i'm out...
i think of all the places and food you like.
i imagine myself holding your hand when i see another couple doing so.
i remember we always go to the same places -.-

when i brush my teeth...
i still look at your toothbrush in my cup.
i think of when you sleep over.
i remember how you let me have the sink to myself.

when i type...
i think (always trying to) of the wonderful things i can say about you.
i imagine you peeping over.
i remember though, you never let me do so.

when i sing...
i wanna sing about you.
i wanna sing about us.

if you realise what i just realised, we'll be perfect for each other
i'll never find another, never have to wander.

p.s.
if Taiwan and China's relation is your concern, read Wumi (in chinese only, sorry). i really stand for those thoughts. deep and reasonable. note: i am no republican nor democrat (:

p.p.s
i need to turn my bioclock back to normal. pimples pimples pimples.

#12

2008-11-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

Day of exitement, exhaustion, fun and splurge with Zul (:
we started Graniph shop hopping, to Topmen for shirts and then HMV. got JUICE mags!
then it was my turn @ taka. I almost bought the whole make up set, in all different brands.

1) Chanel Mat Lumiere in 02 Porcelaine

2) THEFACESHOP the flower dual concealer in NB21
3) Shu Uemura rouge unlimited in pk302
4) M.A.C sheertone blush in pink swoon (limited edition)

these are all my possessions. i threw away the super old ones already.
i don't know why the difference but what the hell i am super happy and to add on, the staffs gave me more reason to feel like this.

HAHAHA! am i cheapo or what but Charmaine (Chanel;Taka) gave me the whole set of cleansing samples and complimentary complexion makeover, lady @ faceshop gave me Bb cream and chiobu @ Shu Uemura gave me 2x4ml skin purifier cleansing oil (fresh). i tried it, it is super good cos like what the range says, fresh! although its cleansing oil but i feel my skin for the better after removing my makeup.

but it's super expensive (S$103-138 for 450ml depending on range) i am not promoting but the price is scary?

aftermath we sat @ starbucks paragon for java chip and hot guy dose but Zul thinks they're gay. HAHAHA. anyway i didnt care i was just admiring =P

I am so super broke lah okay. after my hair thing my bank will DEPLETE. what a word. but i said i don't care for now. i am gonna work! work and work. the funny thing is when i work i don't shop. most probably cos I will be too busy to. good right. hahaha. jobstreet.sg/newspapers here i come!

xoxo
9 more days (:

Best blogpost yet

2008-11-06T01:19:00.002+08:00

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2008/11/long-ranting-post.html

Xiaxue, i never knew but now i love you. hahaha.

smokers have disturbing behaviours. I HATE TO WAIT!
if you agree and you know it, read the post.

#11

2008-11-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

We're half way through, hang on. will message you tomorrow (:

its my mother tongue retake day and it can kiss my ass. i must say its easy. like all stupid questions really, just they ask so much on life experiences lah i don't have much to talk about. my life is boring other than having family, friends and my bf. i totally fraud. like write bombastic stories. haha i hope no marker's gonna chance upon this. =P

so i ran errands for myself today, M1 top up card ($25.8), got my stripe dress altered ($4 vista pt, the one with lining is $7 lo! so i never. crazy bitch -.-), bought a celeb mag ($2.9) + horoscope booklet ($2.95) and waffle ($0.9).

i feel good~ nanananananana! you know i would! ~

I've never felt this good ever since my exams started. now it will end in 5 days. I AM LOST FOR WORDS FOR THIS SORT OF EXCITEMENT!

so Zul and I am meeting tomorrow! i can't wait for everything (:
xoxo and good night (:

**
p.s.
thanks for the angels. you are super sweet (:

I am who I am.

2008-11-04T15:58:00.003+08:00

This is partly true about me. I see me in those words. hehe. read on.

What Christie Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

#10

2008-11-04T14:53:00.007+08:00

Should i say this?

never use colour pencils, unless you have strong arms. they never bring out colours unless u violently shade. i know best. instead, watercolours, crayons/pastels (yes, don't doubt) and acrylic. (i will use oil if i am a little richer) so yesterday i was telling Zul how much i felt like sitting in a field to paint. it's rare but an extraordinary feeling. i've never wanted to paint more. find pleasure in painting. hais think i'll end up poor, work for paint/art and die with my canvas.

anyway, I am still sick. I slept at 5am this morning, woke up at almost 1pm.
事情基本上就是平淡到不行的平淡

ONCE: Falling Slowly

I wanna watch this movie! anyone have it? =D if not I think I will buy or rent it. my baby might not be interested though =/ (thanks for sharing Wumi!)

**
Update 9.18PM:
I lost more weight than ever. now am 42. hahaha I'm not afraid to disclose cos I was like 50 bout almost 2 years ago. I still eat the same. this is like miraculous. or am I really sick -.- btw, wish me luck for mother language!

#9

2008-11-03T21:27:00.004+08:00

Hello today is day no. 9 and i am officially out of luck for my O level exams. i studied on conflicts and all they came out was on Singapore issues. i am no true blue Singaporean. i know nothing about her. Medisave? what the fish? i only know it covers medical things. and then? wtf.

then there was source-based! hahaha you can't fool me!

Presenting Serbia... a southern European country in the Balkans.

who the h... are they? we were tested on them and Kosovo (part of Serbia). KLA? KFOR? NATO? lord, stop wars. i think the future generations have less wars to study on and i feel relieved for them.

BTW! i need to mug on chinese soon. like tomorrow. not touched anything ever since after 1st try. I hate everything. except that i am gonna get my hair and nails pampered soon. plus new Chanel =P

#8

2008-11-02T22:42:00.005+08:00

I stayed home the whole day. its SS paper time tomorrow and I am not interested. i woke up like 10am to find myself awake when i only fell asleep at 2am previously. this is so super weird. i am so sian okay.

Nope i never had a wild party, guy chasing, gifts receiving kinda life. my life is NOT exciting for now. why must they make people stay in Taiwan for so long? (not for holiday but for torture days?) and i still have to retake damn Chinese on Wednesday. i don't feel like going somehow. my O level luck is no good. first art then mt. both sucked. are my other subjects gonna suck too? i don't know.

its gonna be my SS paper and i did not study. maybe i deserve this. i hate life altogether. i feel emo and shit-like okay?

Sunday is bullshit.

#7

2008-11-01T21:48:00.004+08:00

I don't care anymore. I will shop until I get a job. LOL. this is so super random because nothing happened for me today. I was home the whole damn day, shopping at agneselle and runwaydiva. I just super love them but they always sell so must decide quick if not i just might lose out on worthy designs. =P

Zul was also in the shopping mood for his sister. i should totally get a GAP shirt. hehehe. talking bout prom dresses, i hereby present mine.

sweet heart neckline

elastic band for firm grip

unsymmetrical hem line (front shorter than the back)
it's a really chic and unique colour to go. (everyone's wearing black)

credits to MDS*
I wanted to get this but it was sold out before i could get to it. tsk. hate it when this happens right? sheesh.

but if i were to choose something black...

Balmain.
the sex! (i can't believe i just said that) and model too chunky for it. =/

argh anyway, i shall study tomorrow.

xoxo.

#6

2008-10-31T23:35:00.004+08:00

I woke up with a splitting headache and prepared to head out for mummy's birthday with a lil celebration over at AMK Hub.

the first thing we did was to head over to Sticky Rice restaurant at level one. Superb.

totally had this durian crave so ordered black sticky rice with durian for desserts. sorry no pictures cos i gobbled everything up before i can even remember my camera. hahaha.

this is my face without make up and sleep. *yawn*

since today is Halloween, i present my pumpkinny necklace to you. the same i wore last year. lol. along with my Stage halloween white tee. he is so trilled to be brought over here from Taiwan! thanks Wumi! =D i still love your designs. please do air shipping lah. =/

afterwhich we caught a movie

*source from yahoo movies review
subject: Cannot Make It!!!

What I loved most: Karen Mok

What I really hated: Everything

I would rather die from cancer or any bad karma itself then lying in the stupid coffin and let the dead to hunt me everyday everynight... Really very Lousy show.

***
hahaha! know which movie is it already? like that person said, its bullshit. i don't even like Karen Mok and got this fucked up uncle hugging his underage girlfriend behind me talking damn loud and nonstop. can die! i shh at him too many times to count and he still try to depict the story to his bitch the whole time. then my mum turned around to ask him to shut up. lol. shiok.

there are only 2 kinds of movies that makes me fall asleep.
first: horror movie. i always, never fail to.
second: crap comedies. like Ben Stiller, Jack Black ones. just trying to say i hate Tropic Thunder.

but i didn't fall asleep this time cos the air con was too damn strong. i was shivering.

so for dinner we had shabu shabu, with beef!! =D
plus mushroom and prawns. its heaven. i think i ate too much though. *burp*
all ingredients from Fairprice Xtra @ AMK Hub. they're supposed to be a higher class of supermarket but they really end up looking like Giant. tsk.

btw, long distance called from Taiwan - Singapore is absurbly cut throat expensive. i just topped up baby's prepaid card and was on the phone for bout 7 minutes. $18 card now left with nothing. (plus sending a few messages)

must top up again! -.- rahh.
i NEED a rich boyfriend lah. =x (okay before you say anything, i'm just joking)

xoxo
mini me.

p.s.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM (:

#5

2008-10-30T14:08:00.006+08:00

Models Talk Fall Winter 2008/2009:Jessica Stam

Jessica Stam Backstage WFT

Hello Miss Stam (:
seems like she's lost for words? i know i know Prada is definitely beautiful and delicate. hehe. but but but... she is super smart. she totally got her pilot's license just recently. have i mentioned this before? whatever, she's damn cool. have you noticed she's always chewing gum? i hate the taste of gum when the sugar's all gone.

okay no i am not gonna talk bout maths paper 2. its over. literally.
so anyways i might head over to Marvin's BBQ party later on. why not right? he's the best ever.

Happy 17th birthday!! finally. =P to be updated!

***
12.41am

it was Wei Qiang's birthday too and i didn't know. you don't always steal my luck. tsk. anyways, sorry i didn't wait till you guys cut cake. sian! anyway best wishes to you 2 (:

baby is finally back from outfield! i can get messages again. hehe.

so i was back like at 11pm and wasted all my time hitting this darn roach. and got another fly. dammit my house is infested okay. after my exams = spring cleaning for my room. i have tons to throw away. everything, notes, books and unwanted items under my bed. they'll all be thrown away. wahahaha. i can't wait cos it so god damn dirty! sheesh.

okay bed time...

P.S.
i'm still dreaming bout my chanel 2.55.. argh. i will stop complaining and be contented.

I am still alive but I wonder how I'll die.

2008-10-29T23:10:00.003+08:00

okay i know i only talk bout bean, school and my angst. it'll be over soon i swear.

i know this is so super backdated but Lily Cole on Playboy? ewww. freaky men.

#4

2008-10-29T22:38:00.003+08:00

Physics wasn't a killer. it was okay for me. okay as in i can pass. i am sure. but let's not be too sure. things do not happen whenever you want them to. i know best. so do a lot people.
i got home today realising i did not buy anything at all. i was only on a window shopping spree. or should i say blog sight seeing shopping spree. i am proud of myself.

Anyways, might join Angela for an appointment with a cosmetic practitioner after the exams. why not right, rather spend my money there now. my face is in bad condition. i cannot live with it anymore. no baby its not occasional zits.

So now i am screwing my head on my maths paper 2 mock tests to refresh things. last year's didn't seem that complicated. at least they asked reasonable questions. this year? i hope they don't do it the other way round. I'll be lying if i say I'm not nerved.

To add on, my lab test results are still not out. on what you might ask. it's nothing big just an infection or an allergy. they said 5 days but it has been 9 days? vista clinics suck. oh well at least i sorta healed. damn i have too many things to worry about.

Baby anyway i am sorry i don't text you that often but its hard to cramp everything i wanna say in text or in a way that i can talk or show with my actions. I'm bad at writing stuff. i don't know how to say fancy words. all i can do is pray.

To end this off, i have a weird idea to wake up at 5am so my brain wakes up and so that i have time to take in fibre. everything to help my brain work and wake up. i am so psyched lorh. dammit.

And how the hell do you explain 'overwhelmed' in one word or not more than seven words? somebody help me.

My life is a fustration.

Without you.
hehehehe.

xoxo

#3

2008-10-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

its only the 3rd day. but all i can think of is when i meet him again. at the airport, at his place.. i am looking forward to that day. on his special day too (:

i am dying of fatigue. slept at like 2am last night? my eyes are tired and i feel nausea again. when will this ever stop?
i am guilt-ridden because i did not touch my physics notes at all. i am so screwed.
i am on a buying spree again.
i am not drinking enough water, not getting enough sleep.
i am only thinking of post-exam plans.

baby's gonna kill me when he sees this. (applicable for all points.)

so went to school for some maths today. it seems like paper 2 aint that difficult as i thought it is? my pass is hopeful =D i concuss on my bed the moment i got home. literally. use your imagination, how dramatic can it get? hahahaha. i am out of my mind. 2 more weeks!! rah!

okay okay i am off to bed now. there's no need to bite dear =x

xoxo

Welcome Christie Chua, here is your handwriting analysis.

2008-10-28T00:31:00.001+08:00

Christie uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Christie does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Christie will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Christie is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Christie doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Christie will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Christie believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Christie will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Diplomacy is one of Christie's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Christie can disagree without being disagreeable.

Because Christie has sharp needle pointed 'm' and 'n' humps, she has a very sharp mind. She instantly sizes up situations, making instant decisions. She thinks and evaluates circumstances very rapidly. Many people with this type of mind are geniuses, thus she may be seen as highly intelligent. Christie is often irritated by slow talkers or slow thinkers. If she drives, she gets irritated by slow drivers in the fast lane. She quickly becomes bored when being taught on the level of the slowest student in class. She may be on problem number three when the rest of the class is on problem one. Christie is curious and very active. In fact, in school she might have been a trouble maker because she thought so much faster than the other kids, she finished her work first, thus having plenty of time on her hands to make trouble!

Christie is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Christie basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Christie is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Christie has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Christie is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Christie has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Christie fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Christie has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Christie just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Christie finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

#2

2008-10-27T19:10:00.004+08:00

my only complaints are:

1) that I didn't make myself ready for you sooner in life
2) and I can't give you better and love you more.

never had a more slack day. although i was out at Lido to collect RedAlert3 for brother.

i wore the wrong shoes thus resulting is super red marks at the back of my ankle. yes its the yellow floral flats if anyone remember. they are super pretty and uncomfortable. i am so doing justice to the phrase 'can die for beauty' and it was a gift from Adam! how can throw away!

went on to open-air Starbucks near Fareast Plaza and got this sibei suave angmoh! sorry baby i was looking at old but super good looking angmohs. hahaha. then got this ADORABLE guy in the 912 bus on my way home thats looks just like my bean but fair skinned. lol stop tanning leh! i like fair!

today was pretty much nua day. i studied abit in the train to and fro plus while i have my latte. PHYSICS PAPER IN 2 DAYS PEOPLE!! then MATHS PAPER 2 THE NEXT! wahlao can heart attack. but oh well. must do it for the last time!!

aja aja to my bean and I!~

xoxo.

the skirt

2008-10-27T18:31:00.004+08:00

BNWT Instock skirt from Cutie spree!

*similar to this but the one i have is OOS on site!

colour true to picture (khaki brown)

wouldn't be selling it if it doesnt fit me.

back of skirt is plain, tulip hemline and unique flaps at pocket area. versetile! closet gem for the schooling you!

now special price @ only $15 mailed!! no waiting, no shipping fees!
what are you waiting for? send all mails to

christiechua_7@hotmail.com

#1

2008-10-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

Last night, i sent my bfbeanlove on a 3 weeks Taiwan army expenditure including 3 free days around Taipei (i am happy for him cos he finally got to go, although outfield expected) i held back my tears and watched him go. now we live on 2-3 msges a day. no msn, no phone calls yet and very limited words. only say main points i gathered.

From today on, i'll write bout my days for you baby, every single one, till the day you're back. Hope you'll somehow like this lil surprise (:

Today, weather wasn't really good. it drizzled for awhile and daddy gave us a ride to the MRT so my mum and I could go for our facial appointment. Shu Jie darling is still the best, we talked bout fashion school and stuff. back in m'sia, she was in fine arts but it didn't fed her so here she is doing my face. i'm glad though. =P

afterwhich we headed to SASA to stock up on beauty products. i must say they have almost everything and most importantly, CHEAP!

when i headed home, the first thing was to open up those letters, log into gmail and savour those words that could only come out in forms of emails and in papers. you seldom verbally express but i know how you feel all along, just sometimes because i know, i get confused by your actions. i was taken off guard by how you react. i'm sorry. oh well, i guess i'll just have to live on that and several messages for 21 days, unless if you call for like a minute. i'll make do with it still (:

brother asked me to go over to Lido tomorrow to run an errand but rest assured i'll be studying, whenever i can.

baby i'm no religious but i'll be praying for you every night for your safety, i'll pray that whoever is responsible watches over you to return in one perfect piece.

p.s.
its okay to wash utensils baby, bear with it! jiayou!! and thanks for everything. i cried and cried. that song was on repeat mode all night. i hope i get to dream of you...

xoxo
hanhan

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BBMAK - STILL ON YOUR SIDE

I will stand up for you no matter what you are going through, going through, going through
You found a place where you belong
New friends that can do no wrong
That's what you believe
But who is going to be there when you fall
To build up when you are feeling small
Give you love that you need
Who will, I will
When the whole world turns against you,
Ain't no lie

Chorus

Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
You want to run you want to break free
What you want ain't what you need
Can't you see that I care
I know I'm hard on you sometimes
But when you are looking for the things you can't find
Don't you know who'll be there
Who will, I will
When it's more than you can handle
Ain't no lie

Chorus

I'll be there, I'll be there, I'll be there
I'll be there when you need me I won't let you go
There's nothing I won't do
I'll be there

Chorus

I will be around when the others let you down
I'm still on your side
Anytime you need help and you can't find nobody else
I'm still on your side

500th (: though sidetracked...

2008-10-13T22:00:00.003+08:00

i was so surprised when you told me you remembered. thanks for being such a darling my love. today's our 500th day together...

it seemed like yesterday when we went out for our first date =p

so it was special as after so long, twas the 1st time you walked me home from school. i was elated cos i know it'll perk me up after a long tiring mentally torturing day, plus honey red tea with love <3 baby i'm sorry you had to have lunch later.

honestly, i never liked uniformed school. be it till now, i never liked it. i wanna go fashion school. i know it'll be hectic but i'll be happy. i'll be doing what i love, be it i have to start from scratch. i will buy myself a sewing machine with my pay when i start working (or inherit mum's! hehehe =p), nope not shoes or clothes (:

i really think by then, i'll glow and feel the biggest sense of accomplishment when i make my first dress.. who shall be the lucky one? hehehe. too early to dream i say. O levels first!

so it shall be the science practical exams on the 16th Oct, which is this thursday. i'm terrified. my prelims scored 19/30. it sucks cos my maths F9. hahaha like no link. so poly or art school? $$$ okay.

you know i always wonder how maths and science determine the doings of one in a certain course. like mass com? you fucking calculate the number of times you go on air and how many words you spoke then you divide it accordingly to get words/sec or time on air? bullshit.

or do they have to know how many degrees their microphones are altogether? ahh! i know! the arc angle! lets say 40/360 x pieradiussquare. yay! i know my mic is round so i used the wrong formulae! i hate maths.

but somehow ngee ann is accepting maths 1-9? don't know! saw it on their webby. if true, i will only love ngee ann. other polys are... hahaha. the word shall die with my brain hand in hand.
as title says, this is sidetracked but whatever!

p.s
this post is supposed to be for us! love you my one and only. i'm sorry i complain too much but can't help, just trying to speak my mind, still think you're the best though!
baby, i'm really touched today. thank you! sometimes its just little things like these you do that melts me. 我是一个很好养的女人，只要你对我好就好了~ i love love you. happy 500th (:

For you

2008-10-07T00:29:00.005+08:00

好好哦，每个人都勇敢为爱付出... 为爱而相信对方。难道要陌生人或不熟悉的人才能得到信任和肯定吗？他们都那么浮浅吗？或者，你们就很诚实，一定要用激将法。我知道只要我打华文你就不读了。对吧？

我很失望... 但也觉悟了，爱和被受肯定是在不同等级的吧。难道在戏里的无条件付出和信任的那种坚定都是奢求，幻想吗？也许是我要求太多了... 相信我又要我相信自己，鼓励我，要我坚强，什么也不用说就知道我想什么的偏偏是他。我希望是你。真的。很希望很希望只有你是这样。不是什么都是有前因后果的。我们相遇根本没有理由但我却也很开心，很幸福... 因为，你是改变我这个人生阶段的人。有你才有今天不一样的我知道吗？你对什么事都有耐心，有恒心。只是，对我呢？你到底怎么想？我想要知道。

我... 在跟自己说话...？

p.s.
maybe you'll only read this... next time, sign out from your blogger account please. every time i see it, my heart aches more than ever. not cos of that issue but cos i think maybe i don't know you enough?
you think with what you see literally. how many weekdays have we spent for you to see? and not what you feel or even how i feel. what you say is right. you can choose not to have trust in me, believe in me or just support me in any way. i'll... (try) be fine and face it.
i'm not ranting bout you again. i just don't know how else i can express what i wanna tell you, these are too long-winded for messages, if i tell you on the phone or face to face, i'll sure cry and sprout nonsense.
i really mean maybe i try too hard to love you and i care too much and got too sensitive over every lil thing you say. i failed to show how much i really love you in the right way...
if you care, just hug me, mean it and say nothing. its all i need.

p.p.s.
those who can't understand, I'm sorry but this is not meant for anyone else.

xoxo
Christie

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2008-10-03T00:01:00.004+08:00

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Sudden thought

2008-09-30T01:33:00.005+08:00

Should i go for the extreme and do a pixie cut like Victoria Beckam? the only person that i knew did this is brave Cherie. i was in extreme shock. but that's the whole point right?

As you can see, her hair only gets shorter and shorter and shorter...

hehehe her signature editorial pose!

okay this is sudden love for her. i love her new clothing line! pencil skirts and more pencil skirts.
anyway, please comment on this okay.

To pixie or not to pixie? That is definitely a question.

p/s i cannot tahan(stand it), i am angry because i haven't step foot in Biennale 08. i am jealous of everyone who has already went there. whoever said is gonna bring me is either so lazy, so forgetful or so reluctant. tsk. not happy not happy not happy. somebody better bring me there soon or else.. nothing leh. my threats never work one. i should have gone with Zul that day. regret regret regret. shit. i am VERY not happy.

Emotions

2008-09-22T00:17:00.006+08:00

what is really bothering me? why am i letting it?

i don't know what is it. maybe its the way you expressed it that makes me feel bitter, maybe i felt inferior, maybe its because I've never seen anything written like that about me that I'm actually jealous?? (this is bullshit) or maybe its just because I'm just so not confident about the big four letter word and ultimately myself.

I'm so bitched i read your online diary, which you supposedly hid it as stated of in blogger. like it's there duh. who wouldn't read? but why am i so insecure? why why why? i don't wanna feel like that too you know, but its just there. she haunts me and this is very scary because she is non existent in our lives, like you said and i know. I'm losing sleep over this. I'm so paranoid i hate it. i wanna go to bed and pig out too. why am i so bothered! i thought i could forgo it. it's your freaking past my goodness sake. i constantly tell myself everybody has a past of their own. then i thought bout it and the last entry was so close to when we got together. is this a sign of you being shallow or was i your spare stand in girl? you might say no but i feel that way strongly no matter how much i trust you. the more it occurs in my mind the more deceived i feel. you should know how i feel. you'll hate that feeling too.

): somebody strip these emotions off me please.

fuck i probably have depression and i feel terrible+somewhat childish. am i?

dammit. I'm hungry, i can't sleep and Deric just showed me some really ugly Chanel. Twas disgusted, hello! replica and obscene. urgh my gag reflex is acting.

Project Runway Episode 10 is out! Suede is eww in this challenge, that jacket! my god please forgive him. xO

the few things I'm actually happy about are (nope, nothing to do with ANTM or PR) the date with my boy yesterday @ Vivocity (despite several hiccups). he bought me an army green cap from Pull&Bear! lol and i saw Mr YG china boy too, not letting me and boy in AX. tsk. another, me buying a high waist shorts at $18(with discount). i'm thinking of a skirt too, high waist A-line/pencil skirt. i have so many ideas about what i can do with it! tons of tops are going to see the light with it. I'm in an ultimate excitement state.

maybe i should let it go, grab a small bite and go to bed. these thoughts shall end with this post. i still love and this is ultimate crap. (are you counting the number of 'ultimate' i mentioned in this post? hahaha!) this paragraph sounds pathetic enough.

Zul i need to talk to you about anything, i feel i can pour everything and you'll be okay with it, will you? =[ i know it sucks to work but it's the only time you come online. go to work everyday okay! =x haha no i want my dear friend to get rest i'm just kidding. (baby would say choose a finger.)

ciao. i need to be in bed.

Jessy S

2008-09-19T17:37:00.010+08:00

Somebody secretly loves me! hahaha. I'm so thick-skinned.

Here are some looks i would want right now =/

BCBG Max Azria

Calvin Klein

do i love the top on her or what? credits to Facehunter.

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No i do not want her bathing suit, i want her! Jessica Stam is the Goddess.

For DKNY

You guys must have seen this ad
couture pose ; the infamous hunched back

hello~ class is all i can say.

Stamy on the VS runway...

I still adore her although she can look like the pic on the right. She is human! (will only look at pic on the left, hehehe!)

VS

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hmm, i've been in school, please whoever is looking me up for nothing or for something you think i dont know, stop. i will not entertain you anymore. i'm so sick of you. my place is not a hotel or motel. goddammit. to your questions, my parents are forever home and never shall we meet. do you even refer me as your friend? i doubt so! don't think i'm stupid.

enough of him, i got some of my prelims results. i think i will end up in NAFA or Laselle. My maths is as good as shit filled T.T

and Haiqal, sorry i can't be your date. lol.

btw, scroll down for your new wardrobe pieces! (:

真男人？

2008-09-11T23:12:00.005+08:00

你只是害怕女人的弱男人。
你只是利用女人的贱男人。
你只是依靠女人的烂男人。
你只是伤害女人的坏男人。
你只是男人...

难道男人都这样？

我遇到的都这样.
你只是这样
改变不了的事实

让你这所谓的朋友随风而去
让我们这四年多的友情消失不见
让我把你的号码删除，把所有你施舍的礼物丢弃

我不是小气或在意
只是我不是你所谓的女人
不想再被你玩弄在手掌心里
也许你觉得也没关系

好的坏的
我已做了选择
我们就到这
我不说再见
是永远不见

Your kind of style

2008-09-04T17:20:00.020+08:00

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100th

2008-09-03T15:22:00.006+08:00

Today is the 100th day of his death... I was waiting but he didn't appear. (No i am not depressed or out of my mind.)

I just miss him, his puppy paws and flappy little ears.

This video is of him when he was still lively and healthy.

10 years ago: I just moved to Woodlands from Bukit Panjang and started school in Woodlands Ring Primary School. My first best friend was her but we do not talk anymore. 3 years later, Mickey came into my life.

5 things I am planning to do today: Go to school on time, maths revision, go shopping, finally meeting my Lynn up, step outta the house.

5 things I have done today: Wait and wait and wait and wait and wait (none of the above is done yet at this point of time)

3 of my favourite meals: That brunch+dinner date at Marche, homecooked food and every meal i had with him

5 places I have lived in: Bukit Panjang, Woodlands, does hotels count?

5 things I would do if I was rich: SHOES: JC, CL, MBs!! and anything i want to make happen. wham* reality.

PS I LOVE YOU STILL :(

My perfect weekend

2008-09-01T13:51:00.004+08:00

i finally did it, said something i thought i couldn't. hehe, im making a big fuss out of it although its really minor. baby knows? im proud of myself although i didn't express that i am. are you?

okay my weekend rocks! hehe! refer to baby's blog for post on Chocolate buffet! im simply too lazy. and and and my tagboard is dead. hahaha. you liar! tag more lah! =x

one last thing, i'm gonna start selling some of my clothes so check back for updates!!

xoxo,
ciao bellas.

what am i?

2008-08-27T23:00:00.005+08:00

i'll be away... i'm gonna be okay.

POST DELETED**

good night?

army blues

2008-08-27T14:57:00.005+08:00

i think im too stressed! just took the first prelim paper today. hahaha.

mr syh is going to serve the nation soon and he is OLD!
(haha im sorry i posted our conversation and refer you as old. i really am =x)

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Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
acne

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
no hair

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
how can that be a good face

christie 56 days. says:
lol

christie 56 days. says:
not really what

christie 56 days. says:
not everyone will kena

christie 56 days. says:
so dont worry

christie 56 days. says:
no hair is another prob lah

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
im glad u said that

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
so i suppose u'll be shaving soon?

christie 56 days. says:
i once told my hair if she cuts her hair short, i will cut botak

christie 56 days. says:
friend

christie 56 days. says:
typo

christie 56 days. says:
i told my hair, im funny

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
but what is she thinking...cutting short hair in exchange for a bald christie

christie 56 days. says:
u'll nv see me bald

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
i think its one of the best deals

christie 56 days. says:
yup

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
u mean u'll go back on ur word?

christie 56 days. says:
i made it becos i know she'll nv do it

christie 56 days. says:
i wont

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
what if i cut my hair short

christie 56 days. says:
-.-

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
:D

christie 56 days. says:
if u grow ur hair long, like mine

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
i think its really fair

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
in situations like this u have to be very specific

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
u never know...certain strands of hairs on one's body could be longer than the ones on the head

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
so if the deal u just offered me was a signed contract, u would be dead by now

christie 56 days. says:
where else would have hair as long as my hair on my head mind u!

Free gifts are the biggest cause of sore throat. says:
the world is full of mysteries

christie 56 days. says:
i wont be dead, just bald
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we're the losers who stay home, do nothing and talk crap.
happy 20th birthday in advance army-waiting ample ass-face boy!
LOL.

sweet toothed

2008-08-26T21:37:00.006+08:00

-im on a eclair frenzy! daddy bought 2 packs of eclair. dont know for what! make me fat. but me loovie it! =p

-so oh well, science practical day and i think i suck! big time. eng paper 1's tomorrow! im not gonna take the mt paper =x no point?

-baby's gonna book out on thursday!!

-only one message today. how will i survive november?

-im so worried bout my dress! no dress for prom!

-shopping day on monday!

-im talking in exclamation marks cos im just too excited =p

all in all i love everyone. i would like to.
xoxo

big breakfast

2008-08-23T13:04:00.002+08:00

i mean literally. nasi padang+mac big breakfast.

you think you making up for my dinner last night isit?

LOL! i know you'll read this. thanks anyway! made my day you! (:

i miss you?

2008-08-22T21:40:00.001+08:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

sometimes the simplest words are enough to make someone stay in love forever. thats all it'll take...

tonight i lied (rephrase: didn't do what i said i would do) and went out alone anyway, walked to starbucks and had my liquid dinner - chai tea latte. it is the most disgusting thing i've ever tasted. -.-
tonight i feel sick and i am still shivering
tonight i am home alone, dad, bro n mum all at work. i have Destination Calabria 2007 on full blast and its like dope. i hope my neighbours don't call the police.
tonight is the night i felt the worst. sick, sorrow, chilly and hunger.

oh well, my teacher thinks i'm taking slimming pills. but i'm NOT! lol.
and zul is my Skins watching buddy! =p

ciao.
xoxo

If i can...

2008-08-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

i've been so stressed up recently, not doing well in everything? mt, physics (10/20 p1 mind you) and life. i'm messed up in reality and baby tells me i will only be if i think i'll be.

the truth is i cant help but to be in a mess... will you help clear em up with me?

if i really can.. i hope that i only believe in love, sex and music. if only really people are that easily contented and simple. i will.

another thing, do people subconsiously write about their ex? why is it so hard to believe, although i should and knowing everyone has a past. why am i so unconvinced by your statement of it does not mean anything, just thoughts? why am i so anal bout the date you told me and the difference of what is stated? why does it still feel so intimidating after what you told me about being the only one in your heart now?

too many questions unanswered and never will be...

it just means every fucking single bit to me. (im tensed thus using the f word)

i even have to explain why i use vulgarities when all i can feel is im being torn apart.

p.s. tagboard shall be up soon due to the OVER whelming response. (haha by 1 person!)
p.p.s i hope i can take 'stressed' me like desserts. thanks for sharing why you're so FUCKING stressed up my friend. hahaha

i have every right to use the f word freely when i feel like crap. thank you very much.

xoxo,
christie

When you feel like nothing... but a failure

2008-08-16T14:28:00.004+08:00

and so its not 2 months but weeks. do i feel better? should i?

all i can feel now is failure. not just in my results but everything. everything that i thought i was supposed to be good in and plus those i already suck badly at. all added up to making me feel like a complete loser. maybe i am not working hard enough to overcome and improve but im lost. what can i do?

studies, relationships and my mind. i don't feel a bit good bout any of these. i'm a rude, complacent and self consious negative person. tell me one, just one word to describe something good bout me.

do not say voice cos im going nowhere with it. i've nothing now. do not say family cos im just another brat. do not try to say you know how i feel cos you never will and i too never will know how others feel.

but you can ask yourself, have you ever felt like giving up and that no one can really help? thats the worse you can feel. if you're in that situation and you dont care, you rot but at least you feel like a bird.

carefree.

i've discovered my recent entries to be as pessimistic and negative and suicidal as i can be. it aint new to me i guess. i remember what i did with a handkerchief when i was still young. no scars and instant.

i want to feel happy again. true, from deep within me and others about me too. am i overreacting? or psychotic..

why is it so hard to satisfy myself and others? i have too many questions unanswered.

sometimes i wonder how it would be like if i've never knew you, never fell in love with you, never sat here typing this with your com. maybe i wouldn't be sitting here but somewhere above..

hahaha i sound like i need a shrink. dont worry im fine and pressing on. (:

p.s.
no point for regrets i know. school is great!

p.p.s
i'm gonna work in the IT comex fair! hahahah.

xoxo
love love all*

The craziest thing i've done for love...

2008-08-15T12:53:00.003+08:00

http://matthew-zachary.blogspot.com/2008/08/private-movie-screening_01.html

he is the winner of the private screening of Wall-E by Nuffnang and when i read the craziest thing they've done for love, i was pretty impressed by some!

29) The craziest thing I’ve done for love is to wait more than 3 hours at a bus stop for her after school when I have no lessons and when she came out and asked me if I waited for her, I said no, it was just a coincidence we met here. Catch wall-e in cinemas from 28th august 2008. (http://www.xxjefreedomxx.blogspot.com/)

30) The craziest thing i've done for love is to get her to cut my hair in the bathroom toilet with a pair of kitchen scissors. Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://www.curiositykilledmissruby.blogspot.com/)

32) The craziest thing i've done for love planning and saving up for her birthday 5 months in advance, so i could buy her a huge ice-cream cake and a gigantic tweety bird soft toy, her favourite, for her 16th birthday in school. And getting her friends to give her the cake and take the credit, and not being at the cake-cutting, because she would have just felt weird about it, and have been a ruined birthday. I watched from the corner of the canteen. Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://www.ironytrain.blogspot.com/)

33) The craziest thing I have done for love is I wrote a 12-paged love letter. A4 size school fullscape paper k. Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://www.daywee.wordpress.com/)

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67) The craziest thing I've ever done for love is waking up early everyday to catch the same bus to school as her so as to catch a single glimpse of her and itís still going on! =D Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008. (http://justmyrants.lah.cc/2008/08/09/wall-e/)

this guy is uber sweet!

the craziest thing i've ever done for love... is losing one good year of my teenage life.
***

now i have a confession to make. although some who i dont want them to know bout this will see, i think its only being truthful to myself...

i scored B3 for MT. which is too lousy for me when this is the only subject hopeful for an A. i am just being realistic. now i am paying 24 bucks for the retake. shit.

baby just told me he got posted to infantry ): which means taiwan for 2 months? shit x486325. we're gonna talk bout this later...

sleepless night

2008-08-12T00:19:00.002+08:00

its 12.18am and i can't seem to sleep. i don't know if its because baby was asleep and i couldn't hear his voice or because i'm too fucking anxious and stressed as mt results are possibly out tomorrow.

it was a long weekend for me from friday till monday, which is today... baby and i went shopping for his wardrobe makeover plan on friday and i must say it was fruitful.

oh ya, because i miss him so much, i woke up to read his blog...

i didn't know you are that happy (:

the power of clothes and outer-makeover is undeniably a huge impact. (:
my baby looks like my type of guy, always have been and i'm fallin in love with him all over again! =p

anyways, my love bought me a new 4GB ipod nano along with a super cute pink casing. photo shall be up soon. i so love it but iTunes is driving me nuts =/

we went sakae sunday evening to treat my darling for being so nice. the bloated and satisfied face he had makes me ultimate happy! then he had to book in... ):

so this morning i went to visit my gong gong at SGH. i had to see him in pain and bleed =/ stupid hospital food has only one dish! can't believe it. but there's a really helpful male nurse. thanks! (:

i guess i have to go to bed afterall. school is still on. i have a exam to take in 2 months you know.

good night all.

盧廣仲~

2008-08-04T20:31:00.003+08:00

my favourite artist for now. he is superb. love love.

enjoy ;P

Day 426, without you on a sunny weekday

2008-08-04T19:29:00.002+08:00

hello there, im back after 2 months again.
midyear exams over, prelims soon and Os mt results next week. no i do not have sch on fri and mon so i'm gonna stay home and nua cos people have been telling me i spent my own money way too impulsely, which by the way is none of your business how and where i spend my money now. its not with me (:

today was pretty short day, no choice or whatsoever extra lessons. im free as a bird. im home with my dear computer and the picture of my most wonderful mickey.

i've never seen you in my dreams baby, where are you?

so there were the different opinions on money issues. nobody's right i say. my friends will definitely say im right and vice versa, if thats what you think. i dont feel like continuing, you know i cant. you saw what happened to me the other day when the last thing i need was for you to talk bout money like that. just yesterday, i wrote the first letter for you.

sick and sick, over and over again. nobody was there except someone mentioned something that brighten up my day. thank you.

today is our day 426. yes, i've counted too. i started writing again when you told me why you want me to. have you ever thought that this is all i've wanted?

now, i need time alone too. my time alone like you needed yours, like i've never wanted it but you're wrong. i would just rather spend it with you. my heart is officially broken. i've never wanted to start writing for this but i guess now, this is what i've always wanted to shout out to you.

I LOVE YOU BUT YOU LOVE YOURSELF MORE.

but i still love you... i wanna make things work despite what people say. but if one day you would rather go with their thoughts on me, you can tell me. then its time to say goodbye. trust and respect, love and giving. thats all i want and all that i can give. dont throw it away...

oh by the way, i will start writing every weekend for now at least. to keep myself on track.

many loves.

Four months and twenty-one days

2008-06-04T01:05:00.012+08:00

that's how long i've not blogged. my baby has been giving me constant reminders to but i just can't. im so reluctant, simply because i'm lazy. too many things to write about.

'HELLO HON! I'M HERE NOW! DOING THIS FOR YOU! =P'

9 days ago, my one and only Mickey said goodbye to us and went to the other world where angels will embrace him. i miss him, a lot actually. he died of probably a heart attack, while i was taking my O's MT. i thought he was still breathing and had heartbeat.. well we didn't find out cos we thought it would be unnecessary and that its pointless. he has liver and kidney failure. the last week was hell for him, he couldn't control his bladder and rarely ate when the past him loved human food so much. dad's cooking didn't help at all. Rest in peace my friend. You'll always be remembered and i love you still.

2000 - 26th May 2008

moving on, this is an crucial year for every O's candi. I've been busy with school and mid year exams plus having time of life. i've been shopping a lot, too much actually, which includes haircuts, good food, many many clothes, shoes and bags. i once spent 20++ in mini bits, just for hair accessories. crazy am i?

all in all amounted to 900 in 3 months? esp. after i got my pay then. wah lao can cover my bed with all the stuff. -.- i must stop, Wendy darl tried to but failed big time cos she ended up buying as well. GSS is a cut throat bitch! maybe ask love to keep my card. HAHA! still pondering. =X

talk bout cut throat bitches, i just finish watching House season 4 and (SUPER SPOILER AHEAD...)

Amber died! my god i cried like a baby watching the last episode... cos Wilson found a note from her say 'sorry i'm not here, went to fetch House. ♥A'

okay then there was my birthday on the 20th Jan. my loverboy got me a pink NDS! with a hello kitty casing which he claims to be my xmas one. so anyways its super blinged now with new skin and heart shaped blings. hon brought it to camp the other day and people took it out to make fun of him. he'll be known as the hello kitty guy from now on, along with the hot pink hello kitty boxers i got him. =P kittifying in process~

oh ya, the AX belt i got him got too loose cos he lost too much weight. baby, i like muscular, not skinny with bones -.-

Valentine's was sweet. showered with love and surprises.

my first from you (:

along with chocolates too but i finished em even before i remember to have to do anything with the camera. hahaha.

me all makeup-less and pimply with him booking in. we do this every weekend. i go there and back alone... and the other day you didnt kiss me goodbye and walked off...

last spinal check up... i'm officially discharged! cos i have old, matured bones. haha. thanks a lot doc, although we meet once a year, which is a good thing in all.

so whilst i was there, i changed to the x-ray robe and... i was wearing nothing inside, except for my little panties. felt weird cos it started to get cold and of course, wind easily got into those.

the 1st year anniversary's on the 2nd & 3rd June. its so because it happened at 11.59pm. he thinks its the 2nd while i think its the latter. 2 days is good, more reason to have good food and spend more time together but he aint here. in camp with the guys and rifles, whichever camo.

so... this silly lovely and sweetest love got his dad to bring this over to me while i prepared to go out for mani & pedi (cheap deal! 2 person for $70!)

12 lovely stalks of champange roses. good thing he didnt get 13.

十三 = 失散 ):

and then the bear...

which i hugged to sleep this 2 nights (:

***

went vivo in the day to kill boredom with my Wendy babe, yes ended up shopping, went to meet Zul as well.

aloha! yup tired of all the walking. CalvinKlein heels suck! not meant to walk in at all. they will be left in my closet for now =P

then it was more walking round and then to the balcony area.

this is what we do when we're bored.

i take beautiful pictures when i miss you...

good night people, i'll be back

xoxo,

Christie

只剩下泪痕...

2008-01-14T18:16:00.000+08:00

今天心情不好~ 我也忘了上一次笑是什么时候...
回家的路上在听梁静茹的‘回呼吸的痛’

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otUOby6eq_0
在东京铁塔　第一次眺望
看灯火模仿　坠落的星光
我终於到达　但却更悲伤
一个人完成　我们的梦想
你总说　时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天　就有以后
*想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛　
连沉默也痛
遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛
没看你脸上　张扬过哀伤
那是种多么　寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙　让我去流浪
在原地等我　把自己捆绑
你没说　你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动　自我地过
重复*
我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着　
你在就好了
我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰　
你回来那就好了
能重来那就好了

很可怜的女生，没有了他的她... 漂浮着的灵魂最终也回到他身边徘回，不是吗？

好歌推荐~
王莞之 - 学会

弹奏的黑白琴键
你猜不透你学不会
我的旋律你听见弦外之意你无解
并肩的肢体语言
不够诚心不够绝对
沉默想套你安慰你却当作是责备
+我爱上的是谁
真诚的你
还是我支配大部分的时间
选错了座位
市头的落雨大街
脚步仓促水花纷飞
我的忧郁你发现
心底秘密却搁浅
独自的空荡房间
没有光线没有音乐
多希望你在面前
却满是寂寞云烟
重复+
事与愿违
我流下雪白的眼泪
来次忽略你的纯粹
只忙着核对一首琴键
把现实的你脱轨
是放是紧
或许爱是学会看见自己和你
无可取代的美
不是给自己太多界限
我爱上的是谁
真诚的你
还是我支配如果远走高飞
会不会思念
*事与愿违
我流下雪白的眼泪
来次忽略你的纯粹
只忙着核对一首琴键
把现实的你脱轨
是放是紧
或许爱是学会看见自己和你
无可取代的美
不是给自己太多
重复*
不是给自己太多界限
弹奏的黑白琴键你猜不透你学不会

是青峰填的词哦~ (:
enjoy!
http://video.baidu.com/p?word=%CD%F5%DD%D2%D6%AE+%D1%A7%BB%E1&pos=1&s=3

many love,
christie

I'm alive and bored

2008-01-14T16:19:00.000+08:00

life revolves round school and more school. school school and school almost everyday. (yes choir practises on saturdays.) im outta breathe... i cant think.

i shall bore you further by doing this.

Favourites:

colour - you tell me? (:

food - all food. cold, hot, raw, japanese, chinese, indian, italian..

movie - Sound of Music

sport - Shopping. hehehe.

day - Friday

season - Autumn in Taiwan

cream - Ice Cream!

Current:

mood - stressed

clothes - tee and... nothing else =x

desktop - this random dog

surroundings - cold walls and piles of unfinished work.

annoyance - Chinese and English compos

thoughts - what to write? ):

First:

best friend - this really cute girl called Amanda in pre-school. everyone likes her cos she's really girly and nice while i'm a total tom boy.

crush - cute guy in preschool, fair and athletic. hehe.

movie - Jaws? old school jaws. i was crying.

lie - to have finished my work.

music - 邓丽君(Teresa Teng) songs

Last:
drink - red tea in school

car ride - ah xiong! thanks for saving me. hahaha.

crush - dont wanna talk bout it.

phone call - Gwee?

CD played - 张雨生金选集 (Zhang Yu Sheng's collection)

Have you ever:

dated one of your best friend - nope

broken law - i think? =x

been arrested - nope. (:

been on TV - erm yeah.

kissed someone u dont know - nope. why would i?

5 random things you are good at: singing, crapping, eating, spending $$, shopping

4 things you have done today: homework, school, eat and blog.

3 things you can hear right now: music, the raindrops and the keyboard.

okay lah i have pictures duh!

with darling girl Wendy

more are with her.. =/

okay the following ones are really backdated.

with Zam on my last day of work. (:

thanks Mageret, for the delicious Xmas present.

baby got these for me after work one day... i still cant bear to eat the HK candy necklace up. hehe.

karaoke and fish&co. with Wendy, Ee Koon and Wesley during my first off day...

aww the days.

yes, anxious, nervous... excited.

Father Koh and beautiful Miss Yati

The Dowager~ =x

anyways, work's overdued. i cant and dont feel like doing work, at all. weekend was spent in NYP Open House on friday, Gramps place to celebrate his birthday on saturday and town yesterday. its not very appropriate, i know. its a crucial year, i know. so what? whats the point when i'm struggling with a stupid idiotic composition?

rahh i must not rant.

Late night

2008-01-10T02:10:00.000+08:00

i'm still doing work. i can't think. i can't find my old self back, the old 3 months ago. i need her back. ='[

i need a warm tight hug. badly.
oh by the way, school sucks!

i miss you ):

Yum yum yum...

2008-01-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

I'm currently committing one of the seven deadly sins, Gluttony.
i just cant stop eating. anyone help me ='[ i don't wanna go fat!!

and it also happened because B&J Cherry Garcia is one good old school ice cream. Spoon lickin' good i tell you.

so school was okay.. 5 free periods? yup 4 art and 1 chemistry, straight. i cant even finish my overdue Chinese compo. I'm so pathetic!
I'm scared ):

choir was after school, us dinosaurs (inside term) have to go back and listen to the songs and dance for orientation on thurday and prepare for the a concert in RP on the 28th of February. tickets will be on sale soon.

so today this other conductor, Mr C, came in and me seeing him for the first time thinks he's damn cool cos he can sing.. like a real manly voice. i love real manly voice. =x although he might be... ah never mind. hehe. but one thing is he's so obsessed with the pronounciations and he expects respect and discipline which is superb because that is just what our current choir members need.

i cant believe they can actually talk and sit in the middle of warm ups! one of the 'hao' brothers actually chatted whilst a dance item. i dont know what to say. our dear HH and JL is too soft spoken.

Calling out for Xin Yi!!! if you see this, please teach em how you work. i mean seriously, I'm worried.

i need a break.

Exercise??

2008-01-07T19:18:00.000+08:00

?? its such a foreign object to me! being without exercise for 3 months straight is absurb... is working considered? lol.

first pe lesson with the famous Ms Thia... i must say the rumours are all true. its one 'nightmare come true' hour i tell you.
rounds n' rounds bout the school, up n' down stairs.
but exercise is good. i'm gaining weight already. hahaha.
and gwee is right bout the boring monday part. =x

to end this short and lousy entry,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SELINA DARLING!!! (:

ciao

First Faithful Day

2008-01-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

yup its the first day of school.

i totally miss shopping the other day, alone.
bought books like nigella lawson's domestic goddess. i need a new oven! or even, just a decent one! old or new. =/

i totally miss sleeping ):

i totally cannot stop being late. i did, on this very day, the first.
kill me.

father/farmer/auntie koh is officially the babysitter of all of us. hahaha. how 'lucky' of him. =p

Brand New '08

2008-01-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

happy? new year...
i never knew a happy new year. until last night...

spent the countdown over at the yacht club with baby and many others. i love the sea, a lot actually. i love how the breeze goes about my hair and face. then the moment came, everyone lighted flames and shouted happy new year in unison... hugs and kisses from you to me. i love how i feel then. really.

anyways, felicia came with her friends, who looks utterly familiar. who knows! its daniel! who was in shock the whole night, thinking he'll never see me ever again after primary grad. -.- heartless.

well new year huh. new life? definitely not. its back to school and i made a promise to myself i make this year change my life. bring me somewhere higher i hope.

birthday's drawing near too.. old~ although i look way older then my age.

dont like making resolutions, if anyone reads... i strongly believe in doing things that engages both the heart and soul. the want to achieve something is also important yeah. so i do what i think i should. right and wrong. i fall? i stand up, with no tears and move on. its a lesson learnt, at least to not fall that way ever again.

its going to be a tough year, i know. but i wont give up.

happy! new year... (:

Pleasant Surprise Indeed

2007-12-29T21:55:00.000+08:00

baby got me a hello kitty pouch for xmas and it's a accessory to my birthday one.
he hid the present for so long and made me guess. i cracked my head real hard. baby was laughing at my stupid guesses till yesterday... i looked at the size and thought of the possibilities. then a wild guess. i got it.

it's a PINK DS Lite!!! omg omg omg~

thanks love. yes i love em. xoxo.

(:

iwassuperbusy.com

2007-12-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

MERRY XMAS EARTHLINGS (:

hehehe. anyways, i swear i was. work almost killed me.

1) i fell sick.
2) i'm heavily eye-bagged.
3) my voice almost died.

the list can go on...

but one thing's for sure. i love everyone over there. paragon people. esp Amna!! (she's never gonna see this cos she dont even know it exists. hahaha)

what can i say? working is monotonous. starts at 11, lunch any hour between 1-4 and ends frigging late. 1am is late.

NO LIFE! (is what Johan always tells us)

i totally agree.
so... last day was 23rd. sorry guys. yes Jo, i'm heartless. =/

xmas eve night for me was great. i spent it with my baby.. no partying, no countdown. just macdonalds. yes i'm lovin' it. every bit of it. (:

on the other hand, N level results for me... 6 points. need i explain?

okay this entry is so random.
what can i do? i dont have a life.

oh ya, i baked my first cake for baby on his twentieth birthday on the 16/11... (there was a small typo here. sorry love =p) thanks chiak and really helpful big sister! lol.

what else did i miss out on?? omg this feels so much like making a list. which i really hate doing. -.-

hmm, taiwan trip part 2? soon means... erm... =x

Going home

2007-10-28T13:05:00.000+08:00

I'm at the airport now.. waiting for my 1410 flight and will reach in 4 hours something. You know flights.. something will cock up.

anyways, my Taiwan trip posts will be up asap. they are half done and in draft. so i'll see you guys huh.

ciao darlings.

(:

Taiwan Part I (14-16 Oct)

2007-10-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

"if having tattoos on my body means im a gangster.. can i proclaim that every guy with moustache.. is your father?"

hahaha gonna start my entry with this yo. cool stuff Nicholas! like saw it after watchin' Miami Ink. (Ami James's super cool! =p)

and one more thing,
Happy 16th Birthday to Isaac on the 14th!! you are finally 16 yo! sorry i couldn't turn up for your party yeah. (:

oh ya... I'M IN TAIWAN !!!
its already day 3... (:

now the photos ~

checked in and all, waiting to board. (:

4hours something later...
Welcome to Taiwan and slow luggage! (we waited for bout an hour or 2?)

BMW ride from mum's company provided by our hotel came to fetch us. the driver was pretty nice guy, he played luo xiao zhu's songs right after i told him i adore our '主任'. lol.

lunch was great, meaty though. haha. see this sesame thing? it was supposed to be made into powder form first then add sauce to mix and eat the pork cutlet with it but we kinda ruined it. went exploring once we settle abit and first stop is the bookstop. =x (i only bought magazines lah... dont give that disgusted look hor.)

it was much more cute. the eye was blinded. im sorry. ):

so anyways, this is my dinner for the night. hehe.

food in taiwan is mind blowing! even a normal, non-attractive sandwich taste like heaven! didnt like the soya bean though.. yucks.

must-try: Pork Cutlet
lunch lunch lunch near mum's office with Ivy Auntie, who by the way is a Taiwanese.

Ivy auntie found me this cybercafe which charges 100NT/hour. they provide drinks and magazines too. my kind of place. (: dont know bout the rate but i think its cheap? compared to the connection in hotel, its dirt cheap o.o

while waiting for mumsy...

where are we going?

Ximen Ding!

after a night of walking... and eating.
Le Bathroom! haha yeah that bunch of bottle's all mine =x

敦化街's view from room... Mos Burger in walking distance. hehe. =p

***
woke up early and had lunch with mummy's colleagues in a restaurant, no point for pictures cos they aint really good ): anyways, found out some of em are kinda fans of luo xiaozhu lah! but too bad i cant stay and watch the 17,18th nov concert.. think they buying tickets! ='[

aiya, all of em had to go back to work so i was alone... walked all the way from 南京东路站 to 太平洋 Sogo. they told me it only takes 5+ mins but i took almost 20! its not as near as you think. -.-

that night i got 2 ulcers on my lips. i think the weather's too dry. thus bought rose lip balm from Muji and got accessories which cost me 1078NT or something. lol. impluse buy. =x

good night y'all. Taiwan Part II coming soon!!

xoxo

Departure

2007-10-14T02:05:00.000+08:00

in another 6 hours. but im still at my baby's place cos i just so miss him =x

was pretty emo earlier. cried like ugly. yeah but i feel better. a lot better. dont know why. must be moodswing though timeofemonth is still long. haha.

this will be a short post cos my baby's taking his shower and i dont want him to see me type. lol. this will be a secret until he sees it.

till i reach Taiwan,
ciao.

xoxo to you.

Granny always says...

2007-10-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

'开心就好了...'

isit really like that? can people really be content with that? by just being happy?

my answer is no... no? yeah you agree, don't you?

was feelin' cranky again. i need food big time. i wanna gulp another super size burger down again. it makes me feel good, although my body doesn't. potato chips will replace em though. Red Rock Deli's great. the Lime & Black Pepper and Dijon Mustard & Honey ones. but i like honey more. i love honey and you♥
=p

anyways, i'll be in Taiwan startin Sunday afternoon so look out for me.

xoxo,
Christie

Forget it.

2007-10-11T02:15:00.000+08:00

(click to enlarge)

Backdated

2007-10-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

yes i am. i'm so forgotten, no?

have been spending the first week of october on exams... and i went shopping after all that... which pretty much made me broke. i use to be a big time miser! must be the stress i had man. oh ya, i got a hair cut from sandstorm's nic. well, made not much a difference. (sorry adrian! if your salon got price reduction then i let you earn my buck-a-roos! =x) hahaha. i'm so random.

voila! us cam-whoring, @ comfy toilet in jp.

we had a fatter face in another shot but was outta focus yo.

so anyways, i've been watching '恋人' the korean show, on dvd and the female lead damn cute! but she sure loves to cry lah! so there was one episode where the 2nd female lead lost her baby and squated down her block crying. i did too, like fuck. good thing no one else was home =x

headed over to town to meet up with cass hon to pass her da dresses we bought online and she helped abit with getting me a part time job. thanks hon! (: then rush down to slimming sanctuary with mummy again for ol' facial and the abstraction hurt like hell, i swear. Shu jie dear was having her break! @#$%^&* no quality massages for me. =[

took away Carl's jr for late dinner as mummy has to attend a meeting over the phone. damn i hope they go to Miami. i wanna visit Ami's Tattoo shop. =x

anyways, did something totally illegal, had my portobello mushroom burger (which tasted just like mushroom swiss from BK) meal, on the bus. hahaha. this guy watched me eat the whole thing the whole time. to my surprise, i saw tomatoes and onions after the first bite (ya i know, sua gu right? i'm just not a big fastfood fan -.-) i hated em, a lot.

ate em anyway cos it reminded me of you... yeah you big son of a bitch... you who made me a even bigger one, a gargantuan burger without the mushroom and like twice the portion of everything else. the lettuce, the tomato, onion, beef, even the bread and a dozen huge calamari rings just because i said i was alittle hungry and feelin' cranky. everything was wrapped in several freaking pieces of aluminium and they cut my finger yeah. i never fucking told you cos you believed that it keeps the food warm and fresh. yeah like fuck you, snatched em from me and never finished it alright! and i thought there would be a second serving to something else soon. i didnt. you're like fucking spiderman. i dont hate you. im just disappointed... its just... i got the wrong guy, you. you shouldnt have lied(about something else, big issue). the more i thought of it the more i fucking hate you. argh its fucked up. still am infuriated after almost 2 years.

pardon me. had to let it out... i'm good and all. chill.

so... folks, i'll be in taipei for a good 2weeks from the 14th. any places of recommendation? (:

Super fed up

2007-09-28T20:51:00.000+08:00

yes i am. after talking to that bitch. she dont even know today's our last day in school! hah!
*rolls eyes*

anyways, paper 2 will be out on the 9th, which is super late. its like a race against time cos i have to complete the damn thing by 13th or latest 14th. how to do it in 5 days?

hai~ -.-

talk about last day of school, it was pretty emotional. it was Mr Ben's too.. he will be going over to some other school next year. i shook his hand and said the last goodbye. (:

okay bedtime! geog remedial in da mornin' yo. i dont have a life! dont tell me to get one -.-

p.s. wah edwin! i wanna buy that chair lah! hahaha. xD

2 days left...

Exam stress

2007-09-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

天天没带pencil box~ oh pencil box~
(In canto)

haha theme of the day from the one and only Angela. xD

yup thats how stressed we were. to sing all that rubbish means a lot of stress. we are almost insane. formula after formula.. can do nothing.

just keep studying just keep studying... study study study
(in tune of Dorry's (Finding Nemo) just keep swimming~)

i'm out of my mind.

well, finally had energy to blog and read blogs cos i've had my afternoon nap. it's good i tell you. have naps! don't stress yourselves out people. especially those who are gonna have their O's or N's.

all i can say is.. RELAX! well i'm not so relaxed myself. looking at the rate somebody comes to school. i haven't got my art paper 2 yet! please come early so i can finish on time, before 14th that is. damn.

5days to the 2nd half of the battle...

Congrats to Angela and her family...

2007-09-22T17:33:00.000+08:00

for the prettiest place to live in ever. (: i just love the laminated flooring and mirrors all over. cool stuff. haha.

well, at her place now for house warming and that busy woman has to entertain guests and attend to everything. Biyu and i am so bored here...

busy woman painted my nails hot pink. =D
love the eclair you guys had for the buffet.
LOVE your quilt. hahahaha.

oh~ yeah?
haha! (sorry, inside joke)

i'm so random.

p.s. eh, hope the mooncakes didnt taste bad. =x

Almost time

2007-09-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

its almost time everything comes to an end..
firstly, the FINAL due date for O's art is next wednesday. (i was super pissed. everyone thought it's today)
secondly, my last 3 papers are 2 weeks away. aja aja!
all of these means the start of something new, start of holidays and then 2 whole weeks in Taiwan. (:

time passed real fast today, i was extremely worn out after rushing on my art pieces. (last minute work =x) now i'm having flu and bad sore throat. all thanks to the miscommunication we had with Nana.

was reading up on a post bout romance... Is romance overated?
well.. they will be if you think it is. there's no such gauge for romance. its all from the heart. your heart. alas, most men still think being romantic means fancy restaurants and big bouquets of flowers... actually its goes all the way down to writing a small surprise note every morning to him or her. or saying 'I love you' and giving a kiss every single day and really mean it.

other comments from women...
My man is poor and beautiful.
For Valentine's Day, he painted me a picture of us disguised as two ripe tomatoes.
For my birthday, he gave me a roll of pennies from every year I was alive.
I wake to love poems under my pillows.
Expensive restaurants have nothing on that. Plus, diamonds are tacky and covered in the blood of african slave labor.

Not bragging but I am lucky that my love life is as wonderful as you have depicted. I get a gift every single month on the #th on our anniversary (first time we met), excluding once-a-year First Kiss Anniversary, Proposal Day, Wedding Day. You're right, it isn't the gifts that wow me, it's the thought (he remembers every f--king anniversary and beats me at "Happy Anniversary Honey!" every SINGLE time. And he is my best friend <3

although so, men shouldn't neglect the art and wonders of gifts.. its still a really nice gesture occasionally, having the fact that all women are guilty of complaining that men aren't romantic enough. =p
in all, the most important thing is to not take those you love and who loves you for granted. love and appreciate em. if not, they'll be outta your life, just before you know it. i know best...

***
okay something totally random. i love my beautician for yesterday to the bits! Shu Jie! i love love you! i loved that massage you did for me before, during and after facial! yes everything in exclamation mark! like i told Angela, shiokalulu man! haha~ so i'm going back to slimming sanctuary next month just for you! (i'm like a big sucker for massages, think mummy dearest gonna let me go for her spa package. =D)

lol i'm acting like a kid.

love you my dear~ muah*

Those beautiful days...

2007-09-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANG YANG! (:
it's been 3 years since we met.. you are that 7-up lookalike guy with the complicated relation we have. haha! =x no matter if you'll get to see this or not, still best wishes for all you do and hope you enjoyed yourself despite being in the army. =p

p.s. ya, i do remember birthdays...

i've been busy, with a lot of stuff of course, most importantly N levels and O level art preps. i'm pretty much confident in all. =D

it was not only Malaysia's national day last friday but also Mr Ah Heng aka the one who bumped into my little toe whilst playing musical chair's 19th birthday. (hahaha that shy old man didnt allow photographs taken of him, hence he shall be faceless for this entry. =x)

Chiak the man, cooked as usual... the food tasted fab, as usual. hehe.

the tasty homemade mushroom soup and the not-so-tasty super duper sweetish peach tea. *bleagh

working girl's pasta, as seen in Jamie Oliver's COOKwithJamie. (:

more pictures...

i had a lot of fun with this little guy too.. i seriously think he likes me. a lot. hehe. =p

everywhere i go, there's a love song that reminds me of you...

good night all,
xoxo

The weekend~

2007-08-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

first up, emilene sis's tag-to-do.

part of the rule states: Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog on 8 random facts/habits about themselves.

8 facts/habits of me:
1) i'm a big ass toilet/karaoke singer cum radio. i sing anywhere and everywhere. people are somehow irritated.

2) i read books when i have time. i love love love Mitch Albom!! and secretly hope someone reads 'Little Prince' to me like a bedtime story. =p

3) lazy is the word. always sleepy~

4) hate carbonated drinks. hate hate hate. especially beer. used to like pepsi when i was young though, somehow it disappeared.

5) i have a bad sense of direction. got lost in town for a couple of times already.

6) a girl on the outside and guy on the inside.. always get comments like: '你很男人(you very man)leh!' guess its due to influence from my bro. hah.

7) fears the lizard only. anything lizard-like. eww!! xO

8) according to my baby, i like to poke him randomly. hahahaha!!!

actually, this is a chain thing and i have to tag 8 people to do this..
the 8 lucky people:

BABY~
BRO
EDWIN
XIAORUI SIS
PK
YVONNE SIS
DORIS LOVE

i cant think of the 8th person and the 7 of you there dont have to tag anyone. haha i'll break the chain here.

***
got all the results last friday and i passed every single sub! failed ss though but geog saved it. combined humans was saved! yay-ness. =p

had to go for chinese remedial and during the break, joel showed us his english paper.

this is what you'll get from a 90 pointer for E maths. effing hilarious lah! hahahaha!

headed down Kinokuniya with me baby the next day. =p he actually agreed.. i think its because he wanna get this.

haha!

anyways, saw these.

2 of my fav. men.. bought em. =x

after which, that piggy of mine went over to cine just for this.

o.o

hehe camera shy~ =p

well, did nothing much today. left ah ma's place around 2 plus and to cwp to collect...

ordered like weeks ago, stocks were running out freaking fast.. =D

got free gifts like make up remover, spot treatment gel, intensive eye repair cream and contour lifting cream with collegen.

mummy dearest took these 2 cos i dont need em. lol.
anyways, time for dinner... (:

<3

Flu bug strikes back (hii~yahh!)

2007-08-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

yup, like what i've said. its like a action packed bug and im heavily wounded. lol sounds wrong.. xD

anyways, got to know some of the results and i did pretty okay. although i was utterly disappointed of my chemistry, passed but was not up to my expectation. other than that, only 2 passed english paper 2, i was one of them. =p another was maths, i got a 4 which is totally unexpected. hahaha.

had assembly the last period and justin the man who's gonna treat us to swensen's (wink*) announced that there's gonna be a prom night at holiday inn park! or something like that... i dont know the name of the place. hehe. theme's to dress up like a star or if not just formal or semi formal will do.

its like so exciting lah! i always dream of going to prom and secretly hoping i'll win the title of prom queen. =x who doesnt! -.- but i guess i'd have to turn up with my braces on, dont know how i'll look. from what i gathered from experienced friends, i might just start spitting saliva when i talk or sing.

i'll have the title of spastic prom queen instead. =[

countdown to N level: 12 days