I'm fine...

today i saw the truth, of what the remains are of my bank account
today i was sick and so were many others
today i was extra sleepy but i still stayed up till now
today i finally went to collect/gather everything
today he showed me the pictures of the trip i was supposed to be at
today he gave me the shell he picked at the trip i was supposed to be at, it is no. 8
today he cooked instant meepok for my supper
today i feel more loved, like every other day... :)
today i wanna forget
today i feel better
today i missed you, your hug, your everything

what a day

I tried to call you...

i went on a special trip to Lavender today to look see my potential new home. (yes they're serious) the first unit was horrid but the 2nd really caught our attention in a good way. the owner's sort of a jap family, father and son + local daughter in law. cool shit and they have a doggie :) flooring was good and you know how jap people have a thing for cleanliness. parents are interested. i might live in front of the Mrt station. omg. very near to school, mum's work place and straight train for bro. as for dad, he have to take this bus, unless he transfers to ICA building which is in front of the place yet again. convenience is key. im excited yet i'll be far away from many.

i typed everything in a chuck cos im lazy. i want donuts dammit. =[

gosh i need supper.
ciao.

just too bored

its almost 4, i'm almost asleep.
but this is random.
yeah i will try to sleep early...

-i'm wearing my new sexy leopard pjs and there's no one else to see this except for myself =p
-what does love mean? if this is it then i've fallen too deep..
-i just ate overdue curry for supper. i only hope the worst doesn't happen.
-my life revolves bout a few things: work, shop, sleep, eat and feelings;including mine and his.
-xiaxue just totally tempted me to buy Blackberry.
-i am writing bout my life in point form.
-i miss the train ride home.
-i want to stop waking up so early. (7 hours is not enough)
-i need a hug.
-i hope money is here sooner. =/
-TE BETTER REPLY ME SOON OR ELSE.
-i will watch GG last 2 episodes VERY soon =D thanks...
-mango sales is out to kill me but i'm willing to die. =x
-see point no. 6
-happy birthday Wani dear :)

this is a habit i got from wumi. writing everything in point. i hate that i'm lazy. argh.

come sing me the sweetest lullaby...
good night earthlings.
ciao.

its over?

i want a man, not a boy...

a man who knows how to appreciate the things I do for him.
a man who pampers me with something that money can't buy
a man who knows his mistakes and try to make it right.
a man who can be my pillow whenever i need someone to lean on.
a man who knows when to give in and let down his pride.
a man who'd communicate, listen and respond
a man who respects me, my family and his.
a man who enjoys what life has to offer.
a man who can say yes or no instead of 'anything'.
a man who won't keep me waiting though the day or night.
a man who (at least) try figure out what's going on inside me and resolve it.
a man who help the relationship work when it gets tough
a man who'd never lay his hand on woman
a man who works hard and planning well for his future
a man who is motivated
a man who takes responsibility for his actions
a man who gives me freedom that I need.
a man who loves me with no doubts.

quote/credits: nirarara

this is very true, i guess i'm just seeking for the perfect guy... too early? you showed me its all too late. there's no reason to give you another chance when i've given aplenty, one too many. i'm worn, you realised too late. i guess we shall just be friends forever. but please, be mature, stop having those pills. they only take the pain away for now. go on with your life cos its hurts me so... like its my fault. you have always controlled my feelings and i wont let you do it anymore. don't ponder, just move on.

2 years is a long time. so much for tolerance.

i'll like to add one more point to that list:
a man who has my interest at heart, not mind. feel how i feel.
because i'll feel you too.
because i'll give in too.

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i can't seem to get to sleep... i don't know what it is. period? or i have too much thinking too.
friends tell me to enjoy singlehood. my heart asks me: where is the one who loves me truly?

parents, right at home. haha. yeah.

i've been working, a lot. 6 days a week. the pay is as pathetic as i am. but i see a certain sort of motivation everyday :)

and batman, thanks :)

fyi, yours truly starts school on the 20th july. i'm genuinely excited, no matter how the rumours are. hectic or not, i'll do it with passion. many thanks to xr sis who is giving up her pattern making book to me although it was pretty ex.

should i go to this art fest concert at Laselle with Z? tics are for 30 bucks... hmm =/

people are still nice to me. i suppose.

始终还是这样
始终没有结果
始终... 你没有听懂

ED WESTWICK

first and foremost, i didn't really like gossip girl or chuck whatsoever in the first place but now, i love em and i dig ED WESTWICK. omg british sexy vibe.
this here? one of my fav. songs from the filthy youth. lead singer is of course mr westwick. chuck? is hot too. hahaha. =x




hello cutie =p

he is totally Hugh Laurie in the making cos he can do american accent real well too. smitten shit. i love both of them. can imagine him with the rugged look totally. but oh well, he is with Jessica Szohr now. yucks. hot guys like to go for older women? wtf?

when Vanessa and Nate got together in the show, i was like wtf this is not high school musical bullshit. -.- okay totally random. 

alright anyway, if you know me, i'm well and waiting for my final shot at my ideal school. hmm, shall wait and see. i am, in ages long, mugging for it. (:

last night i fell in love without you... i was bruised.

why...

这是上天的旨意
这是我与你最完美的时刻
希望一切静止
在此时空中
我只是感受到
你在我心中
这... 是我的时刻

-rewatching Meteor Garden I for the 8768934 time. (okay its a randomly typed number)
-living the life of eating and sleeping. i have a bad feeling.
-i don't like to wait...

sleepless night II

actually there were many more of such but it is of ungodly hour today at 3.30am. yours truly is wide awake. maybe i should have gone club hopping after all.

maybe its because i hate love you. days before i was so pissed i wanted to stop talking to you and now i think i miss you too much. shit. you totally control me.

but baby was really nice to me past 2 days although he tried to scare me with bats, he took off and spent most of his time with me and bought me food, headphone (baby pink audio technica onto), Ben&Jerry's and donut factory x6. i only agreed to clean his wall, full of dust. its obvious cos its in purple! is chio purple okay (solid lavender), not faint purple shade, so lame. -.-

2nd reason was cos i was reading sgforums (baby influenced me, i have never read forums of any kind) regarding people waiting for various poly's DAE results. there was this person from MI who already got a call from RP saying he/she has been accepted, although the website status is still pending. o.o like wtf?

fyi, i still haven't got any call of this sort, so as suggested in the forum, i will call them tomorrow morning. sian. my hopes are not up really.

i love you pumpkin, i know i do. i hate it when u try to make me fat though. you like it? wtf. -.-

hahaha its like talking to you face to face cos i know this is the expression i will get. silly.

good night baby!