Day 426, without you on a sunny weekday

hello there, im back after 2 months again.
midyear exams over, prelims soon and Os mt results next week. no i do not have sch on fri and mon so i'm gonna stay home and nua cos people have been telling me i spent my own money way too impulsely, which by the way is none of your business how and where i spend my money now. its not with me (:

today was pretty short day, no choice or whatsoever extra lessons. im free as a bird. im home with my dear computer and the picture of my most wonderful mickey.

i've never seen you in my dreams baby, where are you?

so there were the different opinions on money issues. nobody's right i say. my friends will definitely say im right and vice versa, if thats what you think. i dont feel like continuing, you know i cant. you saw what happened to me the other day when the last thing i need was for you to talk bout money like that. just yesterday, i wrote the first letter for you.

sick and sick, over and over again. nobody was there except someone mentioned something that brighten up my day. thank you.

today is our day 426. yes, i've counted too. i started writing again when you told me why you want me to. have you ever thought that this is all i've wanted?

now, i need time alone too. my time alone like you needed yours, like i've never wanted it but you're wrong. i would just rather spend it with you. my heart is officially broken. i've never wanted to start writing for this but i guess now, this is what i've always wanted to shout out to you.

I LOVE YOU BUT YOU LOVE YOURSELF MORE.


but i still love you... i wanna make things work despite what people say. but if one day you would rather go with their thoughts on me, you can tell me. then its time to say goodbye. trust and respect, love and giving. thats all i want and all that i can give. dont throw it away...

oh by the way, i will start writing every weekend for now at least. to keep myself on track.

many loves.