its over?

i want a man, not a boy...

a man who knows how to appreciate the things I do for him.
a man who pampers me with something that money can't buy
a man who knows his mistakes and try to make it right.
a man who can be my pillow whenever i need someone to lean on.
a man who knows when to give in and let down his pride.
a man who'd communicate, listen and respond
a man who respects me, my family and his.
a man who enjoys what life has to offer.
a man who can say yes or no instead of 'anything'.
a man who won't keep me waiting though the day or night.
a man who (at least) try figure out what's going on inside me and resolve it.
a man who help the relationship work when it gets tough
a man who'd never lay his hand on woman
a man who works hard and planning well for his future
a man who is motivated
a man who takes responsibility for his actions
a man who gives me freedom that I need.
a man who loves me with no doubts.

quote/credits: nirarara

this is very true, i guess i'm just seeking for the perfect guy... too early? you showed me its all too late. there's no reason to give you another chance when i've given aplenty, one too many. i'm worn, you realised too late. i guess we shall just be friends forever. but please, be mature, stop having those pills. they only take the pain away for now. go on with your life cos its hurts me so... like its my fault. you have always controlled my feelings and i wont let you do it anymore. don't ponder, just move on.

2 years is a long time. so much for tolerance.

i'll like to add one more point to that list:
a man who has my interest at heart, not mind. feel how i feel.
because i'll feel you too.
because i'll give in too.

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i can't seem to get to sleep... i don't know what it is. period? or i have too much thinking too.
friends tell me to enjoy singlehood. my heart asks me: where is the one who loves me truly?

parents, right at home. haha. yeah.

i've been working, a lot. 6 days a week. the pay is as pathetic as i am. but i see a certain sort of motivation everyday :)

and batman, thanks :)

fyi, yours truly starts school on the 20th july. i'm genuinely excited, no matter how the rumours are. hectic or not, i'll do it with passion. many thanks to xr sis who is giving up her pattern making book to me although it was pretty ex.

should i go to this art fest concert at Laselle with Z? tics are for 30 bucks... hmm =/

people are still nice to me. i suppose.

始终还是这样
始终没有结果
始终... 你没有听懂